Day 46 – Cravings

I’m getting more and more nervous about this heart procedure. I notice the more nervous I get, the more I have to fight the overwhelming urge to stick something in my mouth. I’m craving alcohol, sugar (namely chocolate) and dairy (chocolate, cheese and pizza).

I keep telling myself if I still want it tomorrow, I can have it tomorrow in an urge to make these feelings pass. But in all honesty, I’m really struggling. I feel so antsy, unable to sit still, edgy, irritable and close to tears. A bath hasn’t helped and I dont think the delicious pinch of nom veggie burgers are going to hit the spot.

If all else fails I’m going to bed.

Tomorrow’s another day.

JS x

Published by lifesippingaway

36 years old, wife, stay at home mum, outdoors lover, wild swimmer, starting the journey to an AF life

16 thoughts on “Day 46 – Cravings

    1. Thanks so much. I’m pretty over weight and with the increased weight comes increased risks. So whilst I completely agree the sentiment, I’m trying to be good and drop a few lbs before to reduce the risk 🥰🥰

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  1. That is a totally serious reason to feel nervous. Let yourself feel nervous. Don’t try to numb it. You will be SO HAPPY you didn’t give into booze at this time. Reading about your heart thing really hits home. It’s one of the reasons I am stopping too. Many times when I’ve been hung over I feel a sort of tightness in my heart area. Super concerning right? I had it checked out a couple years ago and they said it was fine just stress. But my otherwise healthy Dad died at 59 of a sudden heart attack. Shit you think all this would make me stop drinking immediately right? I feel guilty even admitting it. But all we can do now is look forward and make healthier choices…. and you are doing an amazing job.

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    1. Thanks so much. I was exactly the same. My dad had heart issues, then got liver cancer, but it was a heart attack that killed him. Yet I’ve carried on drinking, getting worse and worse. My heart races to 225 bpm, it makes me breathless, my fingers and arm ache and then I’m super tired for a day or 2 after. So yes you’re right looking forward and healthy choices ♡ hope you’re good

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  2. Eat exactly what you want right now. That’s my advice. In the first few months of sobriety you cannot give up foods and other things you enjoy. If the weight is an issue then try dark chocolate with sugar free jelly and berries. It feels like sugar. But give yourself a break. This is totally understandable and normal. You are doing brilliantly and drinking is not going to help this situation AT ALL! Also, I went to bed very early on a fair few nights just to stop myself giving into the cravings. Tomorrow is indeed a new day. Hold onto that lovely. 💕💕

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    1. Thanks ♡♡
      I’ve read up and the heavier you are the more at risk you are of a stroke or death under the procedure so I’m trying really hard to loose some beforehand. I know the % is low but I’m always scared I’ll be in the little % bracket and leave BB without a mum. Absolutely petrified. Hope you’re feeling a bit better xxxx

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      1. It’s so tricky when your mind takes over. Do lots of things that make you feel happy and relaxed. It’s difficult to manage the sugar cravings when you stop drinking. Thinking of you xx

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  3. This is a hard one! It totally makes sense that you would be feeling very stressed. I bet a mountain of strawberries with a little melted dark chocolate (then, early to bed) might do the trick (and be healthy!). Sending hugs and support!!! ❤️

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