Day 50, wow. I’m as surprised as you are that I’m here.
I thought I’d be able to wax lyrical about my beautiful dewy toxin free skin, however, unfortunately my body has regressed into a teenagers and I’m covered in horrible spots.
I thought I’d be able to smugly announce my weight loss, however, I’m fatter and as my nan so eloquently put it “meaty”.
I thought I’d be able to inform you about my money saving, however, I’m still more month than money.
What I can tell you, is the last 50 days has affected me profoundly. It’s literally turned me inside out and upside down.
In the last 50 days, I’ve belly laughed with my husband whilst impersonating Matthew McConaughey (known as Matthew Mahogany in our household). I’ve swam in 2 lakes, the sea and a pool after not swimming for an age. I’ve now signed up to a swim squad and have my second session tomorrow. I’ve hiked solo for the first time in 5 years. I’ve said good bye to my beloved cat, who was my house mate when I was a single girl. I’ve spent more quality time with friends, running, sitting on beaches, eating brunch. In the last 50 days I havent touched alcohol.
I feel braver, energised, excited by life and fierce. I feel each layer of alcohol induced me being stripped back. I’m finding I’m kinder, more patient, more fun, present emotionally and physically.
Talking of present/in the moment, I feel like I’m more grateful being BBs mummy. I actively seek out opportunities to play, interact and make them laugh. I’m there in the middle of the night when they’re poorly. I love the late night cuddles and the early morning chatter. I appreciate all those little moments, I’m striving to be the best mummy I can be.
I’m also more present for my husband. We laugh more. We have date nights that don’t revolve around alcohol and that used to end with an arguement. I appreciate his patience, the little things he does. I find instead of focusing on what drink I’m having on the evening, I focus on him. Tonight it was his turn to put BB to bed. Normally I’d be downstairs sighing with relief it was wine o’clock. Today I was in the bath with BB whilst hubster read us some stories.
I’m also lucky enough to have “met” some amazing, inspiring people through this blog. I’m forever grateful for the support and light each one of you brings with your comments. Thank you.
So 50 days… so excited to see what the next 50 days bring.
What changes did you find in the first 50 days?
Love
JS x
Ps I’ve also had a ton of early nights and even more cake
I had actually been wondering what your “goal” was, so it is 100 days? Wow it seems like you just started… haha of course it went fast from my end! 5 days in here and feeling like an eternity but I think we will stick with it this time? The only thing I have noticed is that I am much more productive getting things done that would otherwise be put off due to a hangover (calling insurance company, figuring out annoying household things, etc.)
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100 days to start with. If I like it I’ll try another 100 days as forever feels to hard to think about 😂. 5 days is amazing, the first bit is so hard. Imnso pleased to hear you’re feeling better and congrats on being more productive that’s awesome, I couldn’t function for about 2 weeks ♡♡
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Totally love your post. Congratulations on 50 days. Such an achievement and you should be so proud. I too gained weight, didn’t save money and I had spots!!! BUT the great feelings you are having are the best aren’t they? Feeling fierce is awesome and to know you are being the best mummy you can be, well what tops that? Well done. Keep going 💕💕
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God we’re so similar 😂. They are the best, feel so appreciative of them. And you’re right, being the best mummy is the best. Hope you’re ok? Xxx
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First of all, congrats on being 50 days in! I know it is a good feeling. Second of all, OMG I totally relate to much of what you wrote! I was just commenting to my husband about how dinners had changed for me. I was also focused on the drinking. Whether trying to make sure I drank just the right amount, that I did get to drink, or what to drink. I get it! I’m enjoying the details of things more and more sensitive to flavors in food, etc. 🙂 Excited for you!
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I’m the same, altho now I fixate on what’s for dinner instead of what am I drinking with dinner 😂. Apparently your taste buds change in this 100 day period, so I’m excited for that.
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Yeah, my rosacea flared up after I quit drinking. So unfair. This all really sounds fantastic. Happy 50 days!!
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Wow!! Inspiring!!!
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Thanks so much sober singer. How are you xx
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Fantastic post and well done! So much positive in here. I remember noticing how much I could focus on other things now I wasn’t thinking about drinking or actually drinking or drunk or hungover – that all took a lot of time! I ate a lot more chocolate but lost weight over time – my face lost its puffiness. You sound like you’re doing well socially too which I struggled with for a long time – keep going you’re an inspiration! P.S. BB and husband sound so worth being sober for! Xx👏👏👏💞💞
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Thanks I dont think I’ve actually ever been called an inspiration before, I’m really touched. And you’re right they definitely are. And you’re right again, I’ve actually forgotten in 50 days how much I used to obsess over drinking, now unless I get a craving I dont think of it. Hope you’re ok, have a good day back after the holidays xx
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Thanks Leafy. My eczema keeps trying too to. I’m hoping it will calm down as the 100 days progress
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I was worried when I started reading that you were only focusing on what wasn’t happening, but look at all the amazingly wonderful things that ARE happening for you! So happy to read your update. Those things you mentioned in the beginning will level out with time, and the positives you mentioned are so much more significant. We’re rooting for you! Can’t wait to read how you feel after 100 days. 💕
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Thanks so much Collette for your support ♡♡
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I love that you are seeing so many good changes so early! That’s wonderful!
xo
Wendy
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Thanks so much Wendy, I feel so lucky. How you’re well? Xx
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Lovely to read this xx
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Thanks Nannaange ♡♡ xx
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