Day 50, wow. I’m as surprised as you are that I’m here.
I thought I’d be able to wax lyrical about my beautiful dewy toxin free skin, however, unfortunately my body has regressed into a teenagers and I’m covered in horrible spots.
I thought I’d be able to smugly announce my weight loss, however, I’m fatter and as my nan so eloquently put it “meaty”.
I thought I’d be able to inform you about my money saving, however, I’m still more month than money.
What I can tell you, is the last 50 days has affected me profoundly. It’s literally turned me inside out and upside down.
In the last 50 days, I’ve belly laughed with my husband whilst impersonating Matthew McConaughey (known as Matthew Mahogany in our household). I’ve swam in 2 lakes, the sea and a pool after not swimming for an age. I’ve now signed up to a swim squad and have my second session tomorrow. I’ve hiked solo for the first time in 5 years. I’ve said good bye to my beloved cat, who was my house mate when I was a single girl. I’ve spent more quality time with friends, running, sitting on beaches, eating brunch. In the last 50 days I havent touched alcohol.
I feel braver, energised, excited by life and fierce. I feel each layer of alcohol induced me being stripped back. I’m finding I’m kinder, more patient, more fun, present emotionally and physically.
Talking of present/in the moment, I feel like I’m more grateful being BBs mummy. I actively seek out opportunities to play, interact and make them laugh. I’m there in the middle of the night when they’re poorly. I love the late night cuddles and the early morning chatter. I appreciate all those little moments, I’m striving to be the best mummy I can be.
I’m also more present for my husband. We laugh more. We have date nights that don’t revolve around alcohol and that used to end with an arguement. I appreciate his patience, the little things he does. I find instead of focusing on what drink I’m having on the evening, I focus on him. Tonight it was his turn to put BB to bed. Normally I’d be downstairs sighing with relief it was wine o’clock. Today I was in the bath with BB whilst hubster read us some stories.
I’m also lucky enough to have “met” some amazing, inspiring people through this blog. I’m forever grateful for the support and light each one of you brings with your comments. Thank you.
So 50 days… so excited to see what the next 50 days bring.
What changes did you find in the first 50 days?
Ps I’ve also had a ton of early nights and even more cake