Day 54 – A bite

I haven’t got much to say today. Apart from during a walk over the fields this evening. I was unfortunate to get bitten by a horse fly on my neck.

This of course stung, then smarted and it then grew, getting more and more itchy on my neck. By the time I got home I just wanted to scratch so bad to give temporary relief.

This got me thinking. The horse fly bite is rather like giving up alcohol. The first day it hurts, my god it hurts. Then smarts as you remember arguments, embarrassment, loss of self respect. As you with draw your skin crawls (or that’s what it felt like for me) and then there was the practice of not giving in and scratching that itch with a drink.

So tonight I have covered the area in tiger balm as a golf ball sized bite forms on my neck, happy and sober, determined not to scratch the itch.


JS x

Published by lifesippingaway

36 years old, wife, stay at home mum, outdoors lover, wild swimmer, starting the journey to an AF life

8 thoughts on “Day 54 – A bite

  1. Hi JS. Sound like a horrid bite. Nasty buggers those horse fly and yes, don’t scratch the itch. It never ends well. I had a ‘drunk’ dream last night and it reaffirmed why I remain sober. It was a relief when I woke and realised it wasn’t real! This is the right thing we are doing. Important to remember that sometimes I think. Claire xx💕🤗


      1. Nightmare one. When you are all this things you don’t like about yourself and then wake up the next day feeling like shit and anxiously berating yourself for all the things you think you said and did but can’t quite remember. It took me back to when I didn’t like myself very much. I realised how much more I like myself now. Xx


  2. Oh the skin crawling, itching days of early sobriety. I’m only on day 16 but dear god I hope I’m past those. Great analogy though! Maybe I’ll start thinking of my addicted voice as a nasty, buzzing horsefly!

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  3. Horse bites are awful! I remember my sister having one in our teens, she couldn’t walk!! If I remember rightly she had to get hospital treatment in the end because she had had a bad reaction to it. Blimey who would of thought this from a blumming fly! I love you analogy too ✋


  4. Nice metaphor! I got a horse fly bite this summer- several on one occasion, in fact! They sure are annoying and painful! I actually went on Prednisone for like a day to calm it down, before deciding the Prednisone made me feel worse than the bite! LOL. Sure hope you feel better soon!


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