I feel slightly bashful of my meltdown yesterday. I think the question just hit a nerve and I spent the evening half watching car share whilst examining my reaction and what it meant.
I think I’m hyper sensitive to anything atm as I’m working myself up about my forthcoming heart procedure and also desperately wondering whether we should have another one. So that one message sent me in a bit of a spin and brought it all to the surface. Thank you for all the lovely, kind, generous comments. I was really touched that you reached out thank you
Today we went to a national trust property with BB and spent a pleasant morning wandering round the grounds. She loves being out doors and looked super cute in her little hat. We stopped for lunch outdoors and then headed back.
Whilst BB napped I met my SD and her mum at the stables and helped her with a lesson. Her mum walked her dog whilst I spent some one on one time with her. It’s lovely sharing a project. I’ve got so much nervous energy it felt good to get out. I also cut my grass and the neighbours.
I read a quote in the happiness project, “what ever love you feel in your heart for others, they will only see it in your actions”. So I’m trying to channel the nervous energy into doing nice actions. I’ve made my husband coffee and left him to read a book whilst I tidied up the garden and I’ve text a few friends to see how they are.
Dexter is still being slightly hard work. He is the most gorgeous goofball of a lovebug, but we are still experiencing issues around his toilet habits. We have worked out he’s got slight diarrhoea, which is causing the issue and there have been lots of little accidents. So we’re following the PDSA advice and hoping it will help him. We have another vet check on Tuesday too and will hopefully get some more advice.
So that’s everything today. How are you all?