I think the universe likes to play funny tricks on us. Just as my scheduled eating was working for me, life threw a curve ball. I’d won a competition for a Autumnal treat box. Inside was lots of yummy treats.
This sent me into another anxiety driven spiral, until I managed to make a plan. I would enjoy the marshmallows at snack time and savour them. The honeycomb I’d give to my god father who has a sweet tooth. The popcorn I’d save for my step daughter and the fruit cake would be a nice treat for the hubster during his mid afternoon slump.
And that is what I’ve done. Once I made the plan, I enjoyed sharing it out and that feeling outweighed the guilt I’d feel scoffing it all.
When my god mum came to look after BB today as I had some work to do, i shared with her about my eating disorder. I was so nervous telling her and cried during the conversation but she was so lovely and supportive. She asked how long it had been happening for and when I told her she grabbed my hand and said she wish I’d told her sooner. I replied I didnt think I was ready to admit it to myself until recently. She’s said once I’m at a place where I’m happy whenever that will be, we will go out for a girls day and that felt lovely. I’m so lucky to have her as a surrogate mum (especially as my mum is so crumby).
In other news BB has just learnt to blow kisses and its adorable.
That’s it today, hope you’re all ok? I’m still doing yoga and have managed not to fully binge. Big congrats to Leafy for 100 days and Clairei47 for a whole year.
Lots of Love
JS xx
Aw I think your plan to gift others with your gift is the perfect solution for you. Your god mother sounds wonderful. 🤗
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Thanks, it felt lovely sharing it out and nice as it’s a new brand so good awareness for the company too. And she is, I’m very lucky xx
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What a great plan and i love how it all fell into place once you formed a plan! Sharing the goodness with others. You turned an unusual situation into something beautiful. 💖
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Thanks so much. And as soon as I had a plan I stopped obsessing about it which was good too xx
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You’re welcome. Maybe it’s inline with the philosophy of taking the focus off ourselves, and using it to bless others. You did great! xx
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That’s amazing … both winning the hamper, sharing it out and also disclosing such important information to your godmom … go you! Planning is so important in success. Without plans for how I’d manage not having a drink I would never have survived many a social situation. Being prepared and avoiding panic is key. Well done (and thanks for the congrats xxx) 🥰❤️
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Awww, that’s very sweet. Thanks! ❤️I love the plan execution and that you talked to your gif mother about it. That’s great. And I’m loving the blowing bubbles image. So cute!!! 🤗
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