Day 152 – Gingerbread

Today in isolation we made gingerbread. I enjoyed the task with my SD, it was nice. She also loved it.

My eating has gone a little bit squiffy again, but I feel quite relaxed about it. I ate 2 pieces of gingerbread with a hot chocolate with cream and had a pizza for tea. Normally that would give me a ton of anxiety.

I’d be asking myself whether I’d be starting a binge? Would I be able to stop it? Am I out of control?

Part of me still stresses and asks this and part of me is telling myself it’s no big deal. You enjoyed the process of baking and enjoying the gingerbread. Just eat more vegetables tomorrow.

I’m definitely going to start my food diary again as that makes me more mindful of what I’m eating.

I cant work out if I’ve hit 5 months today or tomorrow. My first day sober was the 12th. So does that mean every 12th is another sober month? That’s what I thought but my sister thinks my sober date is from today as in you hit the 11th. It’s frazzled my brain.

Any how. Happy sober friday. Hope you’ve all got lovely weekends planned whatever they are.

Lots of love

JS

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36 years old, wife, stay at home mum, outdoors lover, wild swimmer, starting the journey to an AF life

11 thoughts on “Day 152 – Gingerbread

  1. I’ve never been able to work out the sober date correctly … I even got my 1st sober anniversary wrong and I still can’t quite work it out properly. Congratulations anyway. Awesome job. All this baking people are doing, so clever! I have slipped off the ‘no sugar’ wagon and also started having more carbs recently. I like you am trying not to ‘big deal’ it and be proactive about getting back on track with no guilt. Hard though xxx

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    1. So hard. Every time I stuff something in my mouth I ask myself if it’s binging. So far I think its over indulging as I’m enjoying it with people and dont feel out of control. But I think it’s a slippery slope xxx

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  2. I don’t think it matters. Pick the 11th or 12th and go with it.
    Your cookies look lovely. You are a good mom and step mom.

    I think it’s important to accept that even when monitoring food that Christmas is a time of some enjoyment and you get to have that too. Conscious indulgence is different than binging.

    Hugs. You are amazing!
    Anne

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    1. Thanks so much Anne. You know “you’re a good mom” is probably the best compliment anyone could ever pay to me. Thank you I’m really touched. I’ve gone with today as I had a hair dressing appointment so felt like a proper treat. How are you xxx

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