Normally when I start binging on food, that’s it. I’m in a destructive cycle for weeks, with it escalating each day. I end up bloated, with a sugar hangover and feeling utterly rubbish with myself.
I managed to stop binging after 2 days, which is a record for me. I tried to put into practice all the things we’d discussed in my counselling sessions. So food diary, food plan, 2 snacks etc.
I realised my most vulnerable time was BBs nap time so I distracted myself with study for my forthcoming course and asked my husband to hide the chocolate in my SDs room (as she would be so judgemental if I went in and looked for it).
I’ve noticed how rubbish I feel after binging. Not just emotionally, but physically. I have a headache, I feel shaky, I feel tired and irritable. I try and remind myself whilst riding a craving.
I’m not out the woods by any means. I realistically know that with all the tempting foods of Xmas, there will be other times during this period. All I can do is try not to beat myself up too bad and climb back on that horse.
How are you all? Hope you’re all ok? Thanks everyone who reached in my last post.
Love
JS xx
Hi honey!
I’m back.
Took a long break.
Yes, after a binge I feel yucky.
I am on a better peace with food now, but I accept some days I will overeat.
I try to keep myself from feeling shame about it.
Hugs!
Wendy
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I’ve literally just commented on yours ♡♡ so glad you’re back. Lovely to see a photo of you and your mum. And I’m the same, starting to accept it more
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You are definitely going in the right direction! I always had a weird anxiety about nap time … it was like “ok this is my only free time! make the most of it! get stuff done! or relax?!” …. then I’d end up overeating and mindlessly staring at the computer and feel guilty about it.
p.s. love your built ins!!
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This is me!!! I do the exact same. Should I run/yoga/clean/lovingly prepare tea/chill then end up on insta feeling like I’ve lost an hour 😂😂
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It’s definitely a THING amongst moms with toddlers!
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I have eaten so unhealthily this week and done absolutely zero exercise. Nada! I feel awful … it’s the longest I have gone with no yoga for about 5 months! I am not going to let it get to me though. I’m not going to allow myself to continue with poor food choices and not eating regular, healthy meals. I know it’s because I’ve worked 10 – 12 hr days all week and I got my period yesterday. So I feel stressed, unwell and like crap! But tomorrow is a new day and renewed focus. A walk, yoga and cooking a healthy tea for the four of us to sit and eat together. It’s about not letting the shame and guilt take over. Regaining control and going up, not down xxx
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I hear you 🤗🤗🤗 youre right, it’s not letting the negative emotions take over. A healthy family tea sounds amazing. I’ve ran 2 miles tonight and really enjoyed it xxxx
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Brilliant work.
I’m just totally bloody knackered and can tell I’m in one of ‘those’ moods where I could fall out with myself
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Keep writing.this blog will be such a great source of information when you have time to look back.
Hugs. You are doing great.
Anne
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Thanks, I’ve already looked back at the first couple of posts and thought wow it’s like a different person. Cant believe it will be 6 months in Jan ♡♡ how are you Lovely Anne?
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I am really good.
Thursday was my last day of work until January 4. I have pulled out all my quilting stuff. When I got married, in 1999, I made the wedding party quilts. I have done little since.
I plan to quilt, watch tv and just be. Maybe a few boxed escape rooms with my kids.
I think this might turn out to be the best Christmas ever.
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That sounds absolutely lovely. Secretly I’m thinking the same ♡
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“All I can do is try not to beat myself up too bad and climb back on that horse.” Yes. Exactly. ❤️
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♡♡♡
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Yes to what Leafy said above! That is all you can do and perfectly said dear!! 😍😃
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