Day 159 -Breaking the cycle

Normally when I start binging on food, that’s it. I’m in a destructive cycle for weeks, with it escalating each day. I end up bloated, with a sugar hangover and feeling utterly rubbish with myself.

I managed to stop binging after 2 days, which is a record for me. I tried to put into practice all the things we’d discussed in my counselling sessions. So food diary, food plan, 2 snacks etc.

I realised my most vulnerable time was BBs nap time so I distracted myself with study for my forthcoming course and asked my husband to hide the chocolate in my SDs room (as she would be so judgemental if I went in and looked for it).

I’ve noticed how rubbish I feel after binging. Not just emotionally, but physically. I have a headache, I feel shaky, I feel tired and irritable. I try and remind myself whilst riding a craving.

I’m not out the woods by any means. I realistically know that with all the tempting foods of Xmas, there will be other times during this period. All I can do is try not to beat myself up too bad and climb back on that horse.

How are you all? Hope you’re all ok? Thanks everyone who reached in my last post.

Love

JS xx

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36 years old, wife, stay at home mum, outdoors lover, wild swimmer, starting the journey to an AF life

15 thoughts on “Day 159 -Breaking the cycle

  1. Hi honey!
    I’m back.
    Took a long break.
    Yes, after a binge I feel yucky.
    I am on a better peace with food now, but I accept some days I will overeat.
    I try to keep myself from feeling shame about it.
    Hugs!
    Wendy

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  2. You are definitely going in the right direction! I always had a weird anxiety about nap time … it was like “ok this is my only free time! make the most of it! get stuff done! or relax?!” …. then I’d end up overeating and mindlessly staring at the computer and feel guilty about it.
    p.s. love your built ins!!

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  3. I have eaten so unhealthily this week and done absolutely zero exercise. Nada! I feel awful … it’s the longest I have gone with no yoga for about 5 months! I am not going to let it get to me though. I’m not going to allow myself to continue with poor food choices and not eating regular, healthy meals. I know it’s because I’ve worked 10 – 12 hr days all week and I got my period yesterday. So I feel stressed, unwell and like crap! But tomorrow is a new day and renewed focus. A walk, yoga and cooking a healthy tea for the four of us to sit and eat together. It’s about not letting the shame and guilt take over. Regaining control and going up, not down xxx

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      1. I am really good.
        Thursday was my last day of work until January 4. I have pulled out all my quilting stuff. When I got married, in 1999, I made the wedding party quilts. I have done little since.
        I plan to quilt, watch tv and just be. Maybe a few boxed escape rooms with my kids.
        I think this might turn out to be the best Christmas ever.

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