It’s Christmas eve. Christmas eve boxes have been opened, stockings hung and my SD has already headed back to her mums house. Bb is napping, hubby is out getting a few last bits (read panic buying) and I’m curled up with my kindle and a cuppa.
In this moment I feel so at peace.
I also feel exhausted as I’m struggling to sleep. I think anxiety is slowly getting the better of me with this virus and all its new strains. Plus my SDs party life style with her mum, feels like such a risk to me and my beautiful little family.
Each night I’m lying awake, eyes squeezed shut whilst thoughts race through my head. I’m tossing and turning, and cant calm down. It’s like as soon as my head hits the pillow its bingo and all these thoughts, worries, exasperation come into focus.
Then in the morning I’m tired, head foggy. I’ve decided I’m just not going to read the news anymore. The husband has been told to let me know if we go into lockdown or my local restrictions change.
I’m going to start up the yoga again and definitely running more. I’m hoping these 2 things will help. I always feel so chilled after yoga and I can feel the nervous energy leave my feet with every step.
So that’s me today. We’ve also worn matching jamas and Ive loved it. The girls have looked adorable and they both seem to have really enjoyed it.
I thought I’d miss my festive baileys but currently it’s not too bad. I havent binged for a few days but definitely over indulged.
How is everyone finding this Christmas? Is it anyones first sober xmas like me?