Day 165 – Christmas Eve

It’s Christmas eve. Christmas eve boxes have been opened, stockings hung and my SD has already headed back to her mums house. Bb is napping, hubby is out getting a few last bits (read panic buying) and I’m curled up with my kindle and a cuppa.

In this moment I feel so at peace.

I also feel exhausted as I’m struggling to sleep. I think anxiety is slowly getting the better of me with this virus and all its new strains. Plus my SDs party life style with her mum, feels like such a risk to me and my beautiful little family.

Each night I’m lying awake, eyes squeezed shut whilst thoughts race through my head. I’m tossing and turning, and cant calm down. It’s like as soon as my head hits the pillow its bingo and all these thoughts, worries, exasperation come into focus.

Then in the morning I’m tired, head foggy. I’ve decided I’m just not going to read the news anymore. The husband has been told to let me know if we go into lockdown or my local restrictions change.

I’m going to start up the yoga again and definitely running more. I’m hoping these 2 things will help. I always feel so chilled after yoga and I can feel the nervous energy leave my feet with every step.

So that’s me today. We’ve also worn matching jamas and Ive loved it. The girls have looked adorable and they both seem to have really enjoyed it.

I thought I’d miss my festive baileys but currently it’s not too bad. I havent binged for a few days but definitely over indulged.

How is everyone finding this Christmas? Is it anyones first sober xmas like me?


JS xx

Published by lifesippingaway

36 years old, wife, stay at home mum, outdoors lover, wild swimmer, starting the journey to an AF life

14 thoughts on “Day 165 – Christmas Eve

  1. As you know it’s my second sober Christmas and I find Christmas Eve a tough one because the associations with drink are very strong. I haven’t slept for a couple of nights either so I’m with you on the fuzzy head and tiredness. Sounds like you’ve had a lovely day today though and Christmas is really special when you have little ones. Enjoy. (ps I have managed to do yoga 5 days in a row and it does help to get back in the routine. They have been slow ‘chakra’ ones but they have been perfect for my mood right now!) xxx

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      1. It has been easier but I think that’s because there hasn’t been any social occasions to survive. Last year I had all the Xmas parties plus my brother’s 50th birthday celebrations and I was only just over a month sober so everyone kept going on about it and asking me questions. I was exhausted by New Year’s Eve and thankful for January to be honest. This year, no social stuff and just us at home so actually much easier to navigate.

        I am doing a yoga session tomorrow. I figure a nice relaxing one on Xmas day is just the perfect present. Xxx

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  2. Merry x-mas, you lovely mum! Hahahaa matching pj’s I love the idea but have never done it. I ought to get some on clearance this year to save for next year. We are all still feeling fine just mild cold symptoms…. STILL no test results which is soooooo frustrating. We got a big snow storm here yesterday and the temps are way below zero but it’s sunny so feeling alright. Good call on not reading the news, I never do mostly because I can’t handle reading it digitally – I get the real newspaper only on Sunday and that is it. Hey I am doing a 30 day plank challenge for Jan., 15 minutes per day if you want in. It’s on FB though! Taught live by my crazy aerobics instructor.

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    1. 15 minutes plank a day? Like do you build up to it as I can only handle 10 secs atm 😂. Merry Xmas to you too lovely mum. I’m glad to hear it’s only cold symptoms but still that can’t be nice. No snow here, just 4c and a beautiful bright day xxx

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  3. Merry Christmas, JS❤️. I’m enjoying my second sober Christmas and with one under my belt it’s not a “thing” this year like admittedly it was last year. Like it is said about many things – it gets easier with time. I understand this is my experience and can be different with others. Getting ready to head out this afternoon on a small hike with my son under the Colorado blue sky and blanketed with snow. Tonight is pizza and Christmas movies. Life is rich when sober! Keep it up! Sending much love and peace to you🤗

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