Day 233 – Same but different

Compton Verney lake (borrowed from their Instagram page)

4 days after the cravings striked, they are slowly starting to dissipate and it’s such a relief.

And whilst everything looks the same on my normal day to day mum life, it feels sort of different.

I now know I’ve got the strength not to crumble and when there’s rough cravey times in my future what I really need is a bath, book and chocolate/ice cream/cheesecake/all of it.

I feel a strange sense of (maybe) pride, self worth, I don’t know? I normally would’ve given up by now. Admitted defeat and crawled under a blanket with a bottle of fizz.

I think I actually like the new me. The person I’m becoming.

In other news, I’ve booked my open water swimming for the summer at Compton Verney. I’ve managed to talk a friend into coming for a session and I’m so ridiculously excited. I can’t wait to submerge in the cold water and watch the sunrise whilst I swim.

My husband thinks I’m nuts, but I cant think of a better way to start a sunday morning and it costs less than a bottle of wine a week. I’m normally back just as the gang start breakfast, happy and content.

I’m also doing a pre-pgce course before starting in September and actually loving it. It’s around 3 hours per session and there’s 4 sessions. I’m completing it along side the maths work, in BBs nap times. Need to start learning history and English too. I feel all enthused and fired up about learning again. Yesterday we had to write our teaching philosophy. I loved reflecting on what sort of teacher I’d be and drawing on personal experience on the teachers that really meant something to me.

So it all in all it feels like a positive Tuesday. I’ve done yoga. I’ve walked with BB. I’ve met my god mum for a socially distanced chat. I’m running this evening. My skin care routine is continuing.

Hope everyone else is ok?

Lots of Love

JS x

Published by lifesippingaway

36 years old, wife, stay at home mum, outdoors lover, wild swimmer, starting the journey to an AF life

13 thoughts on “Day 233 – Same but different

  1. This is so perfect! Good reflection on how far you’ve come and the small accomplishments for today. Got any specific skin care advice to share?! I’m just about to re-order one of the only products I use – a BHA exfoliant.

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    1. Thanks so much. Have you heard of Caroline Hirons? She’s got a skincare book (sometimes for a dollar on kindle) and it’s amazing. She’s like the Jason Vale/Claire Pooley of the skin care world. Really changed how I care for my skin 🙂

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  2. I love all your doing and your plans! Definitely you should gleam with a pride! 🤩 I totally get that as I am feeling the same and it’s such a great feeling over the regret and rut I used to be in. I can’t wait for warmer weather and no snow here. We got another 3 inches yesterday with white out conditions. Driving stunk. I’d love to start running again. I’d love to bike but I would need to buy a bike and helmet and money’s tough right now so running it is! I’m really glad you are liking the person you are becoming! It’s a wonderful feeling. Have a great Tuesday!!! ❤️

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      1. My husband text me that after work to get out in the sun this afternoon. It’s 23degrees and I’m bundled up head to toe but so glad I came out for a bit. We need this sun. This morning when I fed my horse it was -5 windchill. Brrrrrrr

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  3. It feels great when you sit with and get through the cravings with nothing to add but more sober time. It does teach you about who you are, and who you’re becoming! Proud of you. 💖

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