I realised today I have a 100 days until I reach a full year of sobriety. It’s weird as it doesn’t feel like a long time at all. But then the first 100 days felt like such a long hard slog.
Today we have met my family in the park (to get it over with for Easter). My mum and I don’t get on very well, she’s quite toxic and my sister is the same. So it was a relief to meet briefly for an hour, let the kids play in the playground and then come home.
This afternoon I’ve taken my SD for her horse riding lesson and listened as my boobs gave me a round of applause. I lead her horse for her and forgot to put a sports bra on for the fast bits. Will definitely remember to stick one on in 2 weeks time.
The horse in the photo is a retiree I used to ride when I had lessons and we once entered a show when I was 12 together
My husband and I are really trying. He went in a grump at bed time last night and then apologised this morning which was a start. We’ve both tried to give each other a rest with the kids and I think we’ve both appreciated it.
I’ve been reading Untamed by Glennon Doyle and finding it so inspiring. I’ve taken her suggestion about lying on the floor for 10 minutes and thinking today. Although I didnt reach a deeper level (I think this takes practice), I enjoyed letting my mind wander and the 10 minutes passed fast.
She asks to write down your “knowing”. What your believe your most beautiful life would look like. I’m still musing over my knowing. It takes different forms throughout the day. Definitely a move to the countryside and a close loving relationship with BB and my husband.
So that’s all this Easter Saturday.
How is everyone this afternoon? Thanks for your support the last couple of days.