Day 16 – Gratitude

Today I’m so grateful for water. The vast lakes of the lake district that cleanse your soul. The babbling brooks that make my beautiful baby laugh with delight. The rain splashing my face that makes me feel alive. The water that hydrates my body and is the liquid fuel for every step. Today we didContinue reading “Day 16 – Gratitude”

Day 15 – the M6 is a cruel mistress

Firstly thank you for everyone who has taken the time to reach out. Whether it be reading the blog, liking posts or/and offering words of help/support. I am so grateful to find a little community trying their best to improve themselves. One day at a time. Secondly, I survived the step daughters horse riding. HerContinue reading “Day 15 – the M6 is a cruel mistress”

Day 14 – Boob clap and brunch

The lavender really knocked me out yesterday and we had a rather wild Saturday night going to bed at 8:30pm. Lucky for me that we did, as Beautiful Baby (bb) woke me up at 3:30am demanding attention. Normally I’d have woken up fairly groggy to deal with them or kicked hubster out of bed toContinue reading “Day 14 – Boob clap and brunch”

Day 13 Deep Breaths

It’s the first friday where I havent hurried the bed time routine so I can have that first and (second glass of vino). Together, my step daughter and I bring all of her teddies down stairs and make a den to watch frozen 2. It’s just the two of us this evening as hubster isContinue reading “Day 13 Deep Breaths”

Day 12 – the beer in the fridge

I know some people refer to the cravings and the voice inside their head as the “wine witch”. To me it feels like a dark swarmy cloud, pushing against my skin, with words of temptation whispering on a breeze inside my ear. Yesterday the cloud seemed to have bursts of sunshine in. I think IContinue reading “Day 12 – the beer in the fridge”

Day 11 – am I addicted to Jason Vale?

I’m finding the Jason Vale book on quitting alcohol fascinating. It’s such an insightful book into alcohol addiction. I’m only half way through but I’m enjoying devouring the pages. I think the reason I’m enjoying it so much is because not only is it psychologically based but he also explains what’s happening with the bodyContinue reading “Day 11 – am I addicted to Jason Vale?”

Day 10 – the rage

Today the rage has set in. I’m so flipping angry. Heaven knows what about. Obviously take it out on the long suffering hubster. I mutter at him for leaving things on the stairs. Curse whilst I make sweet potato frittas for beautiful baby. Hang washing out and practically throw it on the line. Mood improvesContinue reading “Day 10 – the rage”

Day 9 – foggy with some sunny spells

Another early night last night taking Jason Vale to bed with me (the book, although girl can dream). Woke up feeling refreshed, one of the things I’m really enjoying about being AF is sleeping so well. Pop out with beautiful baby (bb) to try and get them used to the big outdoors since they’ve spentContinue reading “Day 9 – foggy with some sunny spells”

Day 8- the fog hits

Cleaning the lounge yesterday I came across my big vase, where I’d kept corks of special bottles in. I was under the assumption I’d do something arty with it at one point. They’ve sat in the corner all week taunting me, “look how much money you’ve wasted”, “bet you can’t recall one night from theseContinue reading “Day 8- the fog hits”

Day 7 – when the cravings hit

Hello everyone, hope you’re all having a restful Sunday wherever you are in the world. So yesterday’s meal was lovely. After typing out my blog I did a quick 15 minutes of yoga and then the hubster thankfully didn’t burn the house down the dinner. We then settled down to watch a film on NetflixContinue reading “Day 7 – when the cravings hit”