Day 258 – Excess

I seem to do everything in life to excess. Drinking, eating, exercising, skin care, I’m either all in or completely out. It’s around 3am in the morning here in England and I’ve just been horrifically sick. It’s completely my fault. I decided for 4 weeks I wouldn’t eat dairy or sugar as I’ve previously feltContinue reading “Day 258 – Excess”

Day 230 – Cravings be craving

Woke up on day 230 still craving. It wasn’t an every minute thing, like it used to be at the start. But it was there, whispering away to me. I confessed to my long suffering husband. Who was brilliant. He got me outside for a big walk with BB. We all went to the ducksContinue reading “Day 230 – Cravings be craving”

Day 184 – 6 months sober

For 6 months I’ve lived authentically (or at the very least that’s what its felt like). I chose not to drink alcohol any more after a terrible trip to a childrens farm with a hangover (think the stench of cows combined with the hangover heaves). However, I still continued to drink for the next 2Continue reading “Day 184 – 6 months sober”

Day 167 – Boxing day

Yesterday for Christmas, we stayed at home the 3 of us. I loved it. You see normally Christmas involves 16 of us squeezed round a table at my Aunts, whilst the family politics plays out over bottles of wine and food. My mother being toxic, would make at least 3 maybe 4 digs about myContinue reading “Day 167 – Boxing day”

Day 161 – Labels

I’m starting to think more about labels, mainly the labels we put on ourselves. They can be positive like “clever, happy go lucky, hardworking” or negative “underachiever, overweight, bad friend”. Some of the positives can also become negatives to a person. For example “everyone thinks I’m the weird kid since I’m clever”. I was sittingContinue reading “Day 161 – Labels”

Day 148 – Grey Foggy Day

Today we took a chilly stomp round a park with fog for company. I loved it. We (BB and I) were meant to have our first swimming lesson, but it was cancelled so we had a long bath full of toys. We played. She napped, I did some maths (brushing up for September). Now she’sContinue reading “Day 148 – Grey Foggy Day”

Day 147 – Xmas ready and Yoga

In the panic of my SD potentially bringing in some festive covid on this forthcoming Wednesday, we decided to get Xmas ready today. I’ve finally completed the wrapping, like all of it. To be honest, I was dreading the wrapping. Normally in years gone by I’d be doing this in the evenings, with a glassContinue reading “Day 147 – Xmas ready and Yoga”

Day 146 – Nearly 5 months

Thanks everyone for their kind comments regarding the career change. One minute I’m wildly optimistic and excited. The next I’m having a wobble and quaking in my boots (today is the later). Just keep telling myself baby steps, break it down to easy steps. Then hopefully before I know it, I’ve baby stepped through aContinue reading “Day 146 – Nearly 5 months”

Day 90 – Just call me Gloria Gaynor

“At first I was afraid, I was petrified” I survived!!! the night…. which is a relief as I’m officially on day 90. Last night my mum shared these gems with me over a 4 hour period: I shouldn’t eat so much pasta (after she dishes up a massive bowl of spag bol for me). It’sContinue reading “Day 90 – Just call me Gloria Gaynor”

Day 82 – Day 2 of Isolation

Day 2 of isolation. I’ve eaten all the chocolate in the house. We have walked in the rain, I have crawled on my hands and knees pretending to be a dog and chasing BB. I have cleaned out our bathroom cupboard and found loads of hotel bath bottles so I can have a spa night.Continue reading “Day 82 – Day 2 of Isolation”