Day 257 – That uncomfortable feeling

I watched an episode of the amazing “This is us” earlier in the week and unexpectedly it brought up a whole host of uncomfortable feelings. They’ve stuck around with me all week, lurking in the shadows. So I thought I’d purge/share on here. The episode was in series 5, examining the link of baseball betweenContinue reading “Day 257 – That uncomfortable feeling”

Day 252 – Saturday evening runs

This photo was taken at the end of my run last night. One of the best things about sobriety is the extra time you get. This month I’ve rediscovered my love for running. I used to always run and have done half marathons, 10kms etc. When I got pregnant, it was discovered I had anContinue reading “Day 252 – Saturday evening runs”

Day 233 – Same but different

4 days after the cravings striked, they are slowly starting to dissipate and it’s such a relief. And whilst everything looks the same on my normal day to day mum life, it feels sort of different. I now know I’ve got the strength not to crumble and when there’s rough cravey times in my futureContinue reading “Day 233 – Same but different”

Day 230 – Cravings be craving

Woke up on day 230 still craving. It wasn’t an every minute thing, like it used to be at the start. But it was there, whispering away to me. I confessed to my long suffering husband. Who was brilliant. He got me outside for a big walk with BB. We all went to the ducksContinue reading “Day 230 – Cravings be craving”

Day 229 – Big Fat Cravings

I’m suffering from big, fat, mouth watering cravings tonight. I know what’s causing it. I’ve had a rubbish week, banging head ache for 2 days, rushed yoga practice, little time to myself and my step daughter really grating. This evening, I ran (read waddled) with my lovely mummy friend. We went around a local villageContinue reading “Day 229 – Big Fat Cravings”

Day 189 – When the sh*t hits

The grenade went off last night when my husband emailed his ex wife regarding the private school she is hell bent on sending my step daughter to. She is wishing to break the court ordered financial agreement and contribute less towards childcare due to her funding the school. She also by default wants us toContinue reading “Day 189 – When the sh*t hits”

Day 188 – Alcohol Nightmares

I’ve just woken up all clammy with my heart racing. Last night in my dream I drank. I was sitting in a made up city bar by a window with a collection of people. I was dressed up, confident, glass of crisp, cool, white wine in hand. I remember taking a sip and then thinkingContinue reading “Day 188 – Alcohol Nightmares”

Day 177 – The comfort zone

Nearly 6 months ago. I gave up drink. This was throughout my life, my comfort blanket, my warm and fuzzy against the harsh realities of life. This was especially true in lockdown when my drinking escalated to every night, getting earlier and earlier in the evening/late afternoon. Abstaining from alcohol turns out to be oneContinue reading “Day 177 – The comfort zone”

Day 175 – “Me time”

Firstly, thank you, thank you, thank you to everyone who reached out after my last post. I really appreciated it, it was so lovely. Keeping up with the theme replenish, I woke up this morning early and couldn’t get back to sleep (5:30am). It made me smile as in my old days of working thatContinue reading “Day 175 – “Me time””

Day 174 – Insta and Yoga

Day 2 of replenish and it’s going well. I’ve done yoga last night and in BBs nap time today. I’m following a skincare routine and hiding from my husband the new products that are turning up with alarming frequency from the postman. I’m drinking water. I’m eating mindfully my 2 snacks and 3 meals. I’mContinue reading “Day 174 – Insta and Yoga”