Day 133 – Lockdown Weekends

I’ve been really lucky this weekend to get out and meet an old university friend for a socially distanced stomp. It felt so refreshing seeing someone I hold so dear, catching up, sharing covid horror stories and discussing life. She’s been a friend since we met at university many many moons ago. One of theContinue reading “Day 133 – Lockdown Weekends”

Day 128 – Winner

I think the universe likes to play funny tricks on us. Just as my scheduled eating was working for me, life threw a curve ball. I’d won a competition for a Autumnal treat box. Inside was lots of yummy treats. This sent me into another anxiety driven spiral, until I managed to make a plan.Continue reading “Day 128 – Winner”

Day 126 – Standing on the Edge

Yesterday I took a day off social media to spend with family. I ended up being tested with my eating disorder, but hopefully it’s taught me an important lesson. The day started with a muddy 2.5 mile stomp with the SD over the fields by us. She jumped in puddles, ditches and we played poohContinue reading “Day 126 – Standing on the Edge”

Day 124 – 4 months

So I reached 4 months yesterday and didn’t even realise until my sister text me to congratulate me (she reached 4 months today). I feel so proud that I’ve got here and thankful to the blog and you guys for all your support. When she text I’d literally just seen this image on someone’s storiesContinue reading “Day 124 – 4 months”

Day 116 – First day of lockdown

And so far have had a tea party with the cat Dexter and BB (beautiful baby)😂. I’ve also ran a mile without stopping which feels pretty pathetic to be proud of (I used to run half marathons). But I’m proud of just putting my trainers on, getting out the house, and running. A month aContinue reading “Day 116 – First day of lockdown”

Day 105 – Help

So I’ve got something to write about, but it makes me incredibly nervous and it feels very raw being open about it. I think when I started blogging about alcohol dependency/addiction, I felt the same way but I didn’t know anyone on here, so it was like sending my thoughts away to a faceless internet.Continue reading “Day 105 – Help”

Day 101 – If only I’d known…

Im beginning to understand, the way you respond to whats going on in the outside of you, is reflective of what’s going on within. My life was so much more chaotic and stressful 100 days ago. I was filled with guilt and self loathing and that fed through into my response with everything. Giving upContinue reading “Day 101 – If only I’d known…”

Day 100 – 100 days of Sobriety

It’s been clear for the last few years that alcohol had to go. I was either drinking (in the evenings when BB was in bed) or thinking about drinking, like literally obsessively (whilst BB was awake). I remember a tree falling down really close to my friend and I during a run. This was literallyContinue reading “Day 100 – 100 days of Sobriety”

Day 99 – I’ve got 99 problems but alcohol isn’t one

Well any more that is. I literally can not believe tomorrow is day 100. I’ve been blogging for 93. It feels so surreal. At the start of the process I remember having a discussion with the lovely and wise Ainsobriety about getting rid of the alcohol in the house. I remember her suggesting it andContinue reading “Day 99 – I’ve got 99 problems but alcohol isn’t one”

Day 95 – Park Date

Day 95 was mostly spent outside in the glorious sunshine of a cold crisp winter/autumnal day. We’ve been kindly given a hand me down trike which BB used for the first time today and loved it. After walking round the block 3 times she screamed when it was time to come off. After lunch weContinue reading “Day 95 – Park Date”