Day 257 – That uncomfortable feeling

I watched an episode of the amazing “This is us” earlier in the week and unexpectedly it brought up a whole host of uncomfortable feelings. They’ve stuck around with me all week, lurking in the shadows. So I thought I’d purge/share on here. The episode was in series 5, examining the link of baseball betweenContinue reading “Day 257 – That uncomfortable feeling”

Day 252 – Saturday evening runs

This photo was taken at the end of my run last night. One of the best things about sobriety is the extra time you get. This month I’ve rediscovered my love for running. I used to always run and have done half marathons, 10kms etc. When I got pregnant, it was discovered I had anContinue reading “Day 252 – Saturday evening runs”

Day 233 – Same but different

4 days after the cravings striked, they are slowly starting to dissipate and it’s such a relief. And whilst everything looks the same on my normal day to day mum life, it feels sort of different. I now know I’ve got the strength not to crumble and when there’s rough cravey times in my futureContinue reading “Day 233 – Same but different”

Day 229 – Big Fat Cravings

I’m suffering from big, fat, mouth watering cravings tonight. I know what’s causing it. I’ve had a rubbish week, banging head ache for 2 days, rushed yoga practice, little time to myself and my step daughter really grating. This evening, I ran (read waddled) with my lovely mummy friend. We went around a local villageContinue reading “Day 229 – Big Fat Cravings”

Day 189 – When the sh*t hits

The grenade went off last night when my husband emailed his ex wife regarding the private school she is hell bent on sending my step daughter to. She is wishing to break the court ordered financial agreement and contribute less towards childcare due to her funding the school. She also by default wants us toContinue reading “Day 189 – When the sh*t hits”

Day 188 – Alcohol Nightmares

I’ve just woken up all clammy with my heart racing. Last night in my dream I drank. I was sitting in a made up city bar by a window with a collection of people. I was dressed up, confident, glass of crisp, cool, white wine in hand. I remember taking a sip and then thinkingContinue reading “Day 188 – Alcohol Nightmares”

Day 173 – Happy New Year

I saw this on instagram this morning and thought it was perfect for anyone trying to really do something. I know I’ve been guilty of this. Starting something and then finding an excuse. Whether it be because I’m scared, nervous, my lack of self belief or a hundred other reasons. The things I’ve really wantedContinue reading “Day 173 – Happy New Year”

Day 137 – Yoga

I’ve set myself the challenge of doing yoga every day in November following Adrienne’s home series. I’m surprised how much I enjoy the sessions, how my hips feel better when running and how I can feel antsy until I’ve planned it into my day. Another completely unexpected benefit is the extra bonding time with myContinue reading “Day 137 – Yoga”

Day 133 – Lockdown Weekends

I’ve been really lucky this weekend to get out and meet an old university friend for a socially distanced stomp. It felt so refreshing seeing someone I hold so dear, catching up, sharing covid horror stories and discussing life. She’s been a friend since we met at university many many moons ago. One of theContinue reading “Day 133 – Lockdown Weekends”

Day 128 – Winner

I think the universe likes to play funny tricks on us. Just as my scheduled eating was working for me, life threw a curve ball. I’d won a competition for a Autumnal treat box. Inside was lots of yummy treats. This sent me into another anxiety driven spiral, until I managed to make a plan.Continue reading “Day 128 – Winner”