Day 257 – That uncomfortable feeling

I watched an episode of the amazing “This is us” earlier in the week and unexpectedly it brought up a whole host of uncomfortable feelings. They’ve stuck around with me all week, lurking in the shadows. So I thought I’d purge/share on here. The episode was in series 5, examining the link of baseball betweenContinue reading “Day 257 – That uncomfortable feeling”

Day 252 – Saturday evening runs

This photo was taken at the end of my run last night. One of the best things about sobriety is the extra time you get. This month I’ve rediscovered my love for running. I used to always run and have done half marathons, 10kms etc. When I got pregnant, it was discovered I had anContinue reading “Day 252 – Saturday evening runs”

Day 233 – Same but different

4 days after the cravings striked, they are slowly starting to dissipate and it’s such a relief. And whilst everything looks the same on my normal day to day mum life, it feels sort of different. I now know I’ve got the strength not to crumble and when there’s rough cravey times in my futureContinue reading “Day 233 – Same but different”

Day 230 – Cravings be craving

Woke up on day 230 still craving. It wasn’t an every minute thing, like it used to be at the start. But it was there, whispering away to me. I confessed to my long suffering husband. Who was brilliant. He got me outside for a big walk with BB. We all went to the ducksContinue reading “Day 230 – Cravings be craving”

Day 184 – 6 months sober

For 6 months I’ve lived authentically (or at the very least that’s what its felt like). I chose not to drink alcohol any more after a terrible trip to a childrens farm with a hangover (think the stench of cows combined with the hangover heaves). However, I still continued to drink for the next 2Continue reading “Day 184 – 6 months sober”

Day 180 – Beauty

In these cold, snowy, sober days I’m still managing to find beauty in everything. I’m trying (and sometimes failing) to let go of stress around home schooling my SD, trying to study myself and parent my beautiful baby. I’ve found being sober, not sobering. I’m still laughing more, getting up early to do my yogaContinue reading “Day 180 – Beauty”

Day 177 – The comfort zone

Nearly 6 months ago. I gave up drink. This was throughout my life, my comfort blanket, my warm and fuzzy against the harsh realities of life. This was especially true in lockdown when my drinking escalated to every night, getting earlier and earlier in the evening/late afternoon. Abstaining from alcohol turns out to be oneContinue reading “Day 177 – The comfort zone”

Day 177 – Monday

Last night one of our friends turned 40 and we celebrated with an online murder mystery night. I was dreading it to be honest. It started after my bed time (9pm) and I was worried everyone would be pissed on camera trying to talk over everyone. It actually turned out to be one of theContinue reading “Day 177 – Monday”

Day 175 – “Me time”

Firstly, thank you, thank you, thank you to everyone who reached out after my last post. I really appreciated it, it was so lovely. Keeping up with the theme replenish, I woke up this morning early and couldn’t get back to sleep (5:30am). It made me smile as in my old days of working thatContinue reading “Day 175 – “Me time””

Day 173 – Happy New Year

I saw this on instagram this morning and thought it was perfect for anyone trying to really do something. I know I’ve been guilty of this. Starting something and then finding an excuse. Whether it be because I’m scared, nervous, my lack of self belief or a hundred other reasons. The things I’ve really wantedContinue reading “Day 173 – Happy New Year”