Day 184 – 6 months sober

For 6 months I’ve lived authentically (or at the very least that’s what its felt like). I chose not to drink alcohol any more after a terrible trip to a childrens farm with a hangover (think the stench of cows combined with the hangover heaves). However, I still continued to drink for the next 2Continue reading “Day 184 – 6 months sober”

Day 180 – Beauty

In these cold, snowy, sober days I’m still managing to find beauty in everything. I’m trying (and sometimes failing) to let go of stress around home schooling my SD, trying to study myself and parent my beautiful baby. I’ve found being sober, not sobering. I’m still laughing more, getting up early to do my yogaContinue reading “Day 180 – Beauty”

Day 177 – The comfort zone

Nearly 6 months ago. I gave up drink. This was throughout my life, my comfort blanket, my warm and fuzzy against the harsh realities of life. This was especially true in lockdown when my drinking escalated to every night, getting earlier and earlier in the evening/late afternoon. Abstaining from alcohol turns out to be oneContinue reading “Day 177 – The comfort zone”

Day 177 – Monday

Last night one of our friends turned 40 and we celebrated with an online murder mystery night. I was dreading it to be honest. It started after my bed time (9pm) and I was worried everyone would be pissed on camera trying to talk over everyone. It actually turned out to be one of theContinue reading “Day 177 – Monday”

Day 175 – “Me time”

Firstly, thank you, thank you, thank you to everyone who reached out after my last post. I really appreciated it, it was so lovely. Keeping up with the theme replenish, I woke up this morning early and couldn’t get back to sleep (5:30am). It made me smile as in my old days of working thatContinue reading “Day 175 – “Me time””

Day 173 – Happy New Year

I saw this on instagram this morning and thought it was perfect for anyone trying to really do something. I know I’ve been guilty of this. Starting something and then finding an excuse. Whether it be because I’m scared, nervous, my lack of self belief or a hundred other reasons. The things I’ve really wantedContinue reading “Day 173 – Happy New Year”

Day 163 – Lucky

Today, I feel really lucky. We heard some bad news about a family friend and my heart went out to them yesterday. It literally knocked us for six and we spent a quiet evening my hubby and I. After a sleepless night, BB fell over this morning and cut her lip. There was blood everywhere,Continue reading “Day 163 – Lucky”

Day 146 – Nearly 5 months

Thanks everyone for their kind comments regarding the career change. One minute I’m wildly optimistic and excited. The next I’m having a wobble and quaking in my boots (today is the later). Just keep telling myself baby steps, break it down to easy steps. Then hopefully before I know it, I’ve baby stepped through aContinue reading “Day 146 – Nearly 5 months”

Day 137 – Yoga

I’ve set myself the challenge of doing yoga every day in November following Adrienne’s home series. I’m surprised how much I enjoy the sessions, how my hips feel better when running and how I can feel antsy until I’ve planned it into my day. Another completely unexpected benefit is the extra bonding time with myContinue reading “Day 137 – Yoga”

Day 126 – Standing on the Edge

Yesterday I took a day off social media to spend with family. I ended up being tested with my eating disorder, but hopefully it’s taught me an important lesson. The day started with a muddy 2.5 mile stomp with the SD over the fields by us. She jumped in puddles, ditches and we played poohContinue reading “Day 126 – Standing on the Edge”