Day 33 – love, life, loss

Yesterday ended up being the biggest test so far in sobriety and in all honesty I would’ve broke if it wasnt for my husband. I got the all clear from the boob clinic which was fantastic and I feel very lucky. I came home and was playing with BB just after her afternoon nap. WeContinue reading “Day 33 – love, life, loss”

Day 28 – and so it continues

Theres something quite relaxing about the light slipping away. The pink hues turning to inky blues. I had a lovely evening last night, sitting in bed chatting to other bloggers on here, swapping stories and reading my book with a tonic water. BB slept through the night and when they woke up at 5am forContinue reading “Day 28 – and so it continues”

Day 25 – Rings and things

“Do you want a gin and tonic”, “no thanks”. “Come on have a glass of fizz”, “no thanks I’m going 100 days sober”. After explaining it a million times to my family, what is it they don’t get? My mum moved into her new home today and my sisters, my step daughter and I wentContinue reading “Day 25 – Rings and things”

Day 20 – The cot

Today is/has tested me. After going to bed at ridiculous early o’clock last night, I bounded out of bed like the Duracell bunny around 5:45am. I was determined to make the hubster breakfast. However, on investigating the contents of our fridge I realised we had no food nor coffee due to coming back yesterday fromContinue reading “Day 20 – The cot”

Day 19- swim

I woke up today and cried. Not big screwed up face gluppy tears, but very close to getting there. I was so sad my first holiday with BB and hubby was over. I’d really enjoyed the build up and anticipation towards the holiday, then being in a lovely little cottage in grasmere and showing BBContinue reading “Day 19- swim”

Day 12 – the beer in the fridge

I know some people refer to the cravings and the voice inside their head as the “wine witch”. To me it feels like a dark swarmy cloud, pushing against my skin, with words of temptation whispering on a breeze inside my ear. Yesterday the cloud seemed to have bursts of sunshine in. I think IContinue reading “Day 12 – the beer in the fridge”

Day 11 – am I addicted to Jason Vale?

I’m finding the Jason Vale book on quitting alcohol fascinating. It’s such an insightful book into alcohol addiction. I’m only half way through but I’m enjoying devouring the pages. I think the reason I’m enjoying it so much is because not only is it psychologically based but he also explains what’s happening with the bodyContinue reading “Day 11 – am I addicted to Jason Vale?”

Day 10 – the rage

Today the rage has set in. I’m so flipping angry. Heaven knows what about. Obviously take it out on the long suffering hubster. I mutter at him for leaving things on the stairs. Curse whilst I make sweet potato frittas for beautiful baby. Hang washing out and practically throw it on the line. Mood improvesContinue reading “Day 10 – the rage”

Day 9 – foggy with some sunny spells

Another early night last night taking Jason Vale to bed with me (the book, although girl can dream). Woke up feeling refreshed, one of the things I’m really enjoying about being AF is sleeping so well. Pop out with beautiful baby (bb) to try and get them used to the big outdoors since they’ve spentContinue reading “Day 9 – foggy with some sunny spells”

Day 7 – when the cravings hit

Hello everyone, hope you’re all having a restful Sunday wherever you are in the world. So yesterday’s meal was lovely. After typing out my blog I did a quick 15 minutes of yoga and then the hubster thankfully didn’t burn the house down the dinner. We then settled down to watch a film on NetflixContinue reading “Day 7 – when the cravings hit”