Day 96 –

I’ve never been tempted more than today to drink. The day in some respects has been lovely. BB and I went National Trusting with a friend. We both gazed in wonder at the colours of Autumn on a wood walk. She constantly reached up and tried to touch the leaves. We shared a lunch outsideContinue reading “Day 96 –”

Day 95 – Park Date

Day 95 was mostly spent outside in the glorious sunshine of a cold crisp winter/autumnal day. We’ve been kindly given a hand me down trike which BB used for the first time today and loved it. After walking round the block 3 times she screamed when it was time to come off. After lunch weContinue reading “Day 95 – Park Date”

Day 94 – The supportive wife

My husband is feeling stressed and anxious. Somethings happened at work and there’s increasing pressure on wfh with a new boss trying to prove herself. He’s cared for me and BB whilst I’ve had my heart issue. There’s then been his ex wife playing games and he’s recently become estranged from his mum and sheContinue reading “Day 94 – The supportive wife”

Day 86 – Tomorrow

I’m in a really bad head space about tomorrow and I just can’t seem to shake the foreboding feeling that’s going with it. For those of you that don’t know, when pregnant with BB, it was picked up I had a heart condition which was previously undetected. I’m lucky, it’s not massively serious (SVT) butContinue reading “Day 86 – Tomorrow”

Day 83 – Moderation

Day 83 I’ve been thinking a lot today about moderation. It all started when a new dress arrived and discussing the next girls meal. Everyone was moaning about the grey day (I actually love grey days) and someone chipped in, was it too early to start on the wine. The response from the rest ofContinue reading “Day 83 – Moderation”

Day 78 – Mondayest Monday

My husband is the most loveliest husbands, I’m really lucky. After breaking down for the 15 time yesterday, he wrapped me in a blanket and put on Harry met Sally. I slept better and woke up later than normal. Had cuddles with BB and then we met one of her little friends for an outdoorsContinue reading “Day 78 – Mondayest Monday”

Day 35 – Gliding like a Swan

5 weeks sober. Wow. My alarm went off at 6am after an awful nights sleep. This was mainly down to the fact I was up at 3am talking myself out of the wild swimming, I’d optimistically signed up for when filled with the joys of a pink fluffy. 5am someone walked past the house, presumablyContinue reading “Day 35 – Gliding like a Swan”

Day 27 – Step Mum guilt and blended families

I’m sorry blog but I need to vent. Anyone who is part of a blended family knows how hard it is to make it work for all involved. My husband constantly feels at loss when his eldest child is with her mother, and then showers her with attention to the point of almost ignoring BBContinue reading “Day 27 – Step Mum guilt and blended families”

Day 8- the fog hits

Cleaning the lounge yesterday I came across my big vase, where I’d kept corks of special bottles in. I was under the assumption I’d do something arty with it at one point. They’ve sat in the corner all week taunting me, “look how much money you’ve wasted”, “bet you can’t recall one night from theseContinue reading “Day 8- the fog hits”