Day 264 – Last night

So after writing everything thing down yesterday I went and did some yoga. During a lying down bit at the end, I fully decided I would raise everything with my husband. I think part of my issue was I felt like I wasn’t living authentically as I was holding a lot in. I also feltContinue reading “Day 264 – Last night”

Day 189 – When the sh*t hits

The grenade went off last night when my husband emailed his ex wife regarding the private school she is hell bent on sending my step daughter to. She is wishing to break the court ordered financial agreement and contribute less towards childcare due to her funding the school. She also by default wants us toContinue reading “Day 189 – When the sh*t hits”

Day 165 – Christmas Eve

It’s Christmas eve. Christmas eve boxes have been opened, stockings hung and my SD has already headed back to her mums house. Bb is napping, hubby is out getting a few last bits (read panic buying) and I’m curled up with my kindle and a cuppa. In this moment I feel so at peace. IContinue reading “Day 165 – Christmas Eve”

Day 149 – Step families and Covid

As I predicted over a cuppa this weekend to my bemused (at the time) husband, it is all kicking off over my step daughter and covid. My step daughters bubble has got to isolate, there have been 5 cases in the last few days. She was spending the weekend with her mother when the newsContinue reading “Day 149 – Step families and Covid”

Day 96 –

I’ve never been tempted more than today to drink. The day in some respects has been lovely. BB and I went National Trusting with a friend. We both gazed in wonder at the colours of Autumn on a wood walk. She constantly reached up and tried to touch the leaves. We shared a lunch outsideContinue reading “Day 96 –”

Day 95 – Park Date

Day 95 was mostly spent outside in the glorious sunshine of a cold crisp winter/autumnal day. We’ve been kindly given a hand me down trike which BB used for the first time today and loved it. After walking round the block 3 times she screamed when it was time to come off. After lunch weContinue reading “Day 95 – Park Date”

Day 94 – The supportive wife

My husband is feeling stressed and anxious. Somethings happened at work and there’s increasing pressure on wfh with a new boss trying to prove herself. He’s cared for me and BB whilst I’ve had my heart issue. There’s then been his ex wife playing games and he’s recently become estranged from his mum and sheContinue reading “Day 94 – The supportive wife”

Day 86 – Tomorrow

I’m in a really bad head space about tomorrow and I just can’t seem to shake the foreboding feeling that’s going with it. For those of you that don’t know, when pregnant with BB, it was picked up I had a heart condition which was previously undetected. I’m lucky, it’s not massively serious (SVT) butContinue reading “Day 86 – Tomorrow”

Day 83 – Moderation

Day 83 I’ve been thinking a lot today about moderation. It all started when a new dress arrived and discussing the next girls meal. Everyone was moaning about the grey day (I actually love grey days) and someone chipped in, was it too early to start on the wine. The response from the rest ofContinue reading “Day 83 – Moderation”

Day 78 – Mondayest Monday

My husband is the most loveliest husbands, I’m really lucky. After breaking down for the 15 time yesterday, he wrapped me in a blanket and put on Harry met Sally. I slept better and woke up later than normal. Had cuddles with BB and then we met one of her little friends for an outdoorsContinue reading “Day 78 – Mondayest Monday”