Day 268 – Resolutions

I felt so awful on Easter Sunday after 10 or so days of binge eating. My body felt lethargic, puffy, my joints felt achy, my face was bloated from consuming dairy. Whilst we had a lovely day as a family, easter egg hunting, cooking a roast, the kids picnicking and playing outside, I was soContinue reading “Day 268 – Resolutions”

Day 258 – Excess

I seem to do everything in life to excess. Drinking, eating, exercising, skin care, I’m either all in or completely out. It’s around 3am in the morning here in England and I’ve just been horrifically sick. It’s completely my fault. I decided for 4 weeks I wouldn’t eat dairy or sugar as I’ve previously feltContinue reading “Day 258 – Excess”

Day 210 – Lazy Sunday afternoons

I’ve just woken up from an awesome 2 hour afternoon nap and thought I havent updated this blog for ages. So on this lazy Sunday afternoon here we go. I’m still sober (yay) and still working on 2021’s word replenish. I’ve done yoga every day now since 1st feb and have noticed the change inContinue reading “Day 210 – Lazy Sunday afternoons”

Day 182 – Walks

Today I made time to escape the house and do a big walk with a friend over the fields by us. The husband is in a mood as he’s currently sword fighting his ex wife over her wishes to send their daughter to private school and the implications and added cost to ourselves (she’ll payContinue reading “Day 182 – Walks”

Day 177 – The comfort zone

Nearly 6 months ago. I gave up drink. This was throughout my life, my comfort blanket, my warm and fuzzy against the harsh realities of life. This was especially true in lockdown when my drinking escalated to every night, getting earlier and earlier in the evening/late afternoon. Abstaining from alcohol turns out to be oneContinue reading “Day 177 – The comfort zone”

Day 173 – Happy New Year

I saw this on instagram this morning and thought it was perfect for anyone trying to really do something. I know I’ve been guilty of this. Starting something and then finding an excuse. Whether it be because I’m scared, nervous, my lack of self belief or a hundred other reasons. The things I’ve really wantedContinue reading “Day 173 – Happy New Year”

Day 165 – Christmas Eve

It’s Christmas eve. Christmas eve boxes have been opened, stockings hung and my SD has already headed back to her mums house. Bb is napping, hubby is out getting a few last bits (read panic buying) and I’m curled up with my kindle and a cuppa. In this moment I feel so at peace. IContinue reading “Day 165 – Christmas Eve”

Day 163 – Lucky

Today, I feel really lucky. We heard some bad news about a family friend and my heart went out to them yesterday. It literally knocked us for six and we spent a quiet evening my hubby and I. After a sleepless night, BB fell over this morning and cut her lip. There was blood everywhere,Continue reading “Day 163 – Lucky”

Day 159 -Breaking the cycle

Normally when I start binging on food, that’s it. I’m in a destructive cycle for weeks, with it escalating each day. I end up bloated, with a sugar hangover and feeling utterly rubbish with myself. I managed to stop binging after 2 days, which is a record for me. I tried to put into practiceContinue reading “Day 159 -Breaking the cycle”

Day 155 – Binge Eating

I’m binge eating again and I feel so ashamed. I’m really struggling with moderation. I’m not making excuses but I think I’ve got a built in dodgy moderation switch. I’m all or nothing in most things in life, so why would food be any different. I was definitely all with alcohol and I’m now comfortableContinue reading “Day 155 – Binge Eating”