Day 184 – 6 months sober

For 6 months I’ve lived authentically (or at the very least that’s what its felt like). I chose not to drink alcohol any more after a terrible trip to a childrens farm with a hangover (think the stench of cows combined with the hangover heaves). However, I still continued to drink for the next 2Continue reading “Day 184 – 6 months sober”

Day 173 – Happy New Year

I saw this on instagram this morning and thought it was perfect for anyone trying to really do something. I know I’ve been guilty of this. Starting something and then finding an excuse. Whether it be because I’m scared, nervous, my lack of self belief or a hundred other reasons. The things I’ve really wantedContinue reading “Day 173 – Happy New Year”

Day 172 – Replenish

I’ve been thinking a lot about new years, the turn of not only a new year but a new decade. Thinking about resolutions that have come before. Ones that were successful and ones not so much. I’ve read peoples blogs, listened to what friends and family are doing, looked inwards. There’s 2 that keep comingContinue reading “Day 172 – Replenish”

Day 167 – Boxing day

Yesterday for Christmas, we stayed at home the 3 of us. I loved it. You see normally Christmas involves 16 of us squeezed round a table at my Aunts, whilst the family politics plays out over bottles of wine and food. My mother being toxic, would make at least 3 maybe 4 digs about myContinue reading “Day 167 – Boxing day”

Day 165 – Christmas Eve

It’s Christmas eve. Christmas eve boxes have been opened, stockings hung and my SD has already headed back to her mums house. Bb is napping, hubby is out getting a few last bits (read panic buying) and I’m curled up with my kindle and a cuppa. In this moment I feel so at peace. IContinue reading “Day 165 – Christmas Eve”

Day 161 – Labels

I’m starting to think more about labels, mainly the labels we put on ourselves. They can be positive like “clever, happy go lucky, hardworking” or negative “underachiever, overweight, bad friend”. Some of the positives can also become negatives to a person. For example “everyone thinks I’m the weird kid since I’m clever”. I was sittingContinue reading “Day 161 – Labels”

Day 159 -Breaking the cycle

Normally when I start binging on food, that’s it. I’m in a destructive cycle for weeks, with it escalating each day. I end up bloated, with a sugar hangover and feeling utterly rubbish with myself. I managed to stop binging after 2 days, which is a record for me. I tried to put into practiceContinue reading “Day 159 -Breaking the cycle”

Day 155 – Binge Eating

I’m binge eating again and I feel so ashamed. I’m really struggling with moderation. I’m not making excuses but I think I’ve got a built in dodgy moderation switch. I’m all or nothing in most things in life, so why would food be any different. I was definitely all with alcohol and I’m now comfortableContinue reading “Day 155 – Binge Eating”

Day 152 – Gingerbread

Today in isolation we made gingerbread. I enjoyed the task with my SD, it was nice. She also loved it. My eating has gone a little bit squiffy again, but I feel quite relaxed about it. I ate 2 pieces of gingerbread with a hot chocolate with cream and had a pizza for tea. NormallyContinue reading “Day 152 – Gingerbread”

Day 151 –

My SD came early this morning and the house feels so much more alive having her here. Thankfully her test came back negative, she’s just got a nasty viral infection and cough. She loves the Xmas tree and loves that BB is now saying mama, dadda and cat. She’s desperately trying to teach her toContinue reading “Day 151 –”