Day 275 – More navel gazing

These are 2 Facebook statuses from my account 7 years ago. The worst thing is, there were so many “hilarious” night outs and injuries, I cant even remember what night the status relates to. I wish I could tell 7 year ago self, that being sober is the best way I’d ever feel. That theseContinue reading “Day 275 – More navel gazing”

Day 268 – Resolutions

I felt so awful on Easter Sunday after 10 or so days of binge eating. My body felt lethargic, puffy, my joints felt achy, my face was bloated from consuming dairy. Whilst we had a lovely day as a family, easter egg hunting, cooking a roast, the kids picnicking and playing outside, I was soContinue reading “Day 268 – Resolutions”

Day 258 – Excess

I seem to do everything in life to excess. Drinking, eating, exercising, skin care, I’m either all in or completely out. It’s around 3am in the morning here in England and I’ve just been horrifically sick. It’s completely my fault. I decided for 4 weeks I wouldn’t eat dairy or sugar as I’ve previously feltContinue reading “Day 258 – Excess”

Day 184 – 6 months sober

For 6 months I’ve lived authentically (or at the very least that’s what its felt like). I chose not to drink alcohol any more after a terrible trip to a childrens farm with a hangover (think the stench of cows combined with the hangover heaves). However, I still continued to drink for the next 2Continue reading “Day 184 – 6 months sober”

Day 173 – Happy New Year

I saw this on instagram this morning and thought it was perfect for anyone trying to really do something. I know I’ve been guilty of this. Starting something and then finding an excuse. Whether it be because I’m scared, nervous, my lack of self belief or a hundred other reasons. The things I’ve really wantedContinue reading “Day 173 – Happy New Year”

Day 172 – Replenish

I’ve been thinking a lot about new years, the turn of not only a new year but a new decade. Thinking about resolutions that have come before. Ones that were successful and ones not so much. I’ve read peoples blogs, listened to what friends and family are doing, looked inwards. There’s 2 that keep comingContinue reading “Day 172 – Replenish”

Day 167 – Boxing day

Yesterday for Christmas, we stayed at home the 3 of us. I loved it. You see normally Christmas involves 16 of us squeezed round a table at my Aunts, whilst the family politics plays out over bottles of wine and food. My mother being toxic, would make at least 3 maybe 4 digs about myContinue reading “Day 167 – Boxing day”

Day 165 – Christmas Eve

It’s Christmas eve. Christmas eve boxes have been opened, stockings hung and my SD has already headed back to her mums house. Bb is napping, hubby is out getting a few last bits (read panic buying) and I’m curled up with my kindle and a cuppa. In this moment I feel so at peace. IContinue reading “Day 165 – Christmas Eve”

Day 161 – Labels

I’m starting to think more about labels, mainly the labels we put on ourselves. They can be positive like “clever, happy go lucky, hardworking” or negative “underachiever, overweight, bad friend”. Some of the positives can also become negatives to a person. For example “everyone thinks I’m the weird kid since I’m clever”. I was sittingContinue reading “Day 161 – Labels”

Day 159 -Breaking the cycle

Normally when I start binging on food, that’s it. I’m in a destructive cycle for weeks, with it escalating each day. I end up bloated, with a sugar hangover and feeling utterly rubbish with myself. I managed to stop binging after 2 days, which is a record for me. I tried to put into practiceContinue reading “Day 159 -Breaking the cycle”