Day 116 – First day of lockdown

And so far have had a tea party with the cat Dexter and BB (beautiful baby)😂. I’ve also ran a mile without stopping which feels pretty pathetic to be proud of (I used to run half marathons). But I’m proud of just putting my trainers on, getting out the house, and running. A month aContinue reading “Day 116 – First day of lockdown”

Day 115 -The day before lock down

Today was the last early morning of swimming (photo from the car park). It was the first time I’ve had to de-ice the car at 5:20am but it was worth it. It was a great session. It was also our last baby class, BB and I before lock down. I’m so sad, she’s going toContinue reading “Day 115 -The day before lock down”

Day 114 – “Awakening is not just a tick box exercise…”

“… it’s a process”. That’s Adrienne’s gem today when doing her Awaken day 3. I’m going to be honest, I couldn’t fully let myself go and get into todays practice. But I’m learning from it. The cabinet man turned up unexpectedly (before we had even agreed a quote) to fit the cabinets this morning andContinue reading “Day 114 – “Awakening is not just a tick box exercise…””

Day 113 – “From my home to yours”…

So I may have borrowed another Adriene quote, but she always says something so profound at the end of each session it’s hard not to. Todays session was intend and it asked us to look inside and ask what do we intend. My monkey brain went crazy for a second, but settled on to seeContinue reading “Day 113 – “From my home to yours”…”

Day 109 – Horses

Today I binged terribly, but not all in one go. More like binge grazing through out the day. Each time I did I felt terribly guilty, like I used to with alcohol, but the impulse felt over powering each time it occured. Basically when I’m in this mind set if it’s there I’ll obsess untilContinue reading “Day 109 – Horses”

Day 106 – thank you

Thank you all so much for yesterday. After pressing send on writing it, I cried my eyes out and then went for a waddle to get some fresh air. It certainly helped. I was blown away with everyones kindness and understanding. It’s the first time I’ve ever shared anything like this (well apart from myContinue reading “Day 106 – thank you”

Day 105 – Help

So I’ve got something to write about, but it makes me incredibly nervous and it feels very raw being open about it. I think when I started blogging about alcohol dependency/addiction, I felt the same way but I didn’t know anyone on here, so it was like sending my thoughts away to a faceless internet.Continue reading “Day 105 – Help”

Day 104 – Isolation

Still in isolation awaiting the results. Curled up with a cuppa whilst BB naps. Hubster was on to me straight away when I suggested I go and lie down “to rest”. Git. He’s also pointed out we’ve ran out of toblerone and cant go out (that noise is my waist line rejoicing). In an absoluteContinue reading “Day 104 – Isolation”