Day 128 – Winner

I think the universe likes to play funny tricks on us. Just as my scheduled eating was working for me, life threw a curve ball. I’d won a competition for a Autumnal treat box. Inside was lots of yummy treats. This sent me into another anxiety driven spiral, until I managed to make a plan.Continue reading “Day 128 – Winner”

Day 126 – Standing on the Edge

Yesterday I took a day off social media to spend with family. I ended up being tested with my eating disorder, but hopefully it’s taught me an important lesson. The day started with a muddy 2.5 mile stomp with the SD over the fields by us. She jumped in puddles, ditches and we played poohContinue reading “Day 126 – Standing on the Edge”

Day 124 – 4 months

So I reached 4 months yesterday and didn’t even realise until my sister text me to congratulate me (she reached 4 months today). I feel so proud that I’ve got here and thankful to the blog and you guys for all your support. When she text I’d literally just seen this image on someone’s storiesContinue reading “Day 124 – 4 months”

Day 122 – Food Anxiety

Day 122 today, hanging in there by my teeth. It all feels a little bit harder at the moment. I don’t know if it’s the weather (wet and windy), Englands politics (stinky and windy) or the virus and lockdown. Or it could be I’m changing inside and change is uncomfortable. I’ve been doing a foodContinue reading “Day 122 – Food Anxiety”

Day 120 – Big little feelings

Yesterday I woke up in such a funk and it completely took me by surprise. The night before I’d had my glorious self care night and watched virgin river, in bed, with a tonic water. I’d had 8 hours sleep. I’d set myself up for a great Sunday. All morning I felt anxious, snappy andContinue reading “Day 120 – Big little feelings”

Day 116 – First day of lockdown

And so far have had a tea party with the cat Dexter and BB (beautiful baby)😂. I’ve also ran a mile without stopping which feels pretty pathetic to be proud of (I used to run half marathons). But I’m proud of just putting my trainers on, getting out the house, and running. A month aContinue reading “Day 116 – First day of lockdown”

Day 115 -The day before lock down

Today was the last early morning of swimming (photo from the car park). It was the first time I’ve had to de-ice the car at 5:20am but it was worth it. It was a great session. It was also our last baby class, BB and I before lock down. I’m so sad, she’s going toContinue reading “Day 115 -The day before lock down”

Day 106 – thank you

Thank you all so much for yesterday. After pressing send on writing it, I cried my eyes out and then went for a waddle to get some fresh air. It certainly helped. I was blown away with everyones kindness and understanding. It’s the first time I’ve ever shared anything like this (well apart from myContinue reading “Day 106 – thank you”

Day 105 – Help

So I’ve got something to write about, but it makes me incredibly nervous and it feels very raw being open about it. I think when I started blogging about alcohol dependency/addiction, I felt the same way but I didn’t know anyone on here, so it was like sending my thoughts away to a faceless internet.Continue reading “Day 105 – Help”