Day 97- More National Trust

I literally went straight to bed after writing last night, with a handful of obligatory chocolates and my book. I curled up and slept like I was dead. A benefit of sobriety, I cant be more grateful for. We all woke up around 7 and the weird mood of yesterday was hanging on to myContinue reading “Day 97- More National Trust”

Day 96 –

I’ve never been tempted more than today to drink. The day in some respects has been lovely. BB and I went National Trusting with a friend. We both gazed in wonder at the colours of Autumn on a wood walk. She constantly reached up and tried to touch the leaves. We shared a lunch outsideContinue reading “Day 96 –”

Day 95 – Park Date

Day 95 was mostly spent outside in the glorious sunshine of a cold crisp winter/autumnal day. We’ve been kindly given a hand me down trike which BB used for the first time today and loved it. After walking round the block 3 times she screamed when it was time to come off. After lunch weContinue reading “Day 95 – Park Date”

Day 92 – My God Mum

I don’t know if I’ve ever told you. But I’ve seriously lucked out with my god mum. She is everything I’d love to be if I’m ever lucky enough to be given the role. My BB even knows her as Grandma Din (when I was little I couldn’t say Lynne so the name Din stuck).Continue reading “Day 92 – My God Mum”

Day 91 – HBD BB

Today is BB’s first birthday and we have celebrated with a Colin the Caterpillar cake. Like her mum, she adored her first taste of chocolate and here begins a beautiful love affair with the magic brown stuff. I can’t even describe the love I feel for my 1 year old daughter, it seems to beContinue reading “Day 91 – HBD BB”

Day 89 – Babysitting

Tonight I’m being babysat by my mother which is enough to drive anyone to drink. Whilst I’m feeling betterish and venturing out of bed, I can’t lift anything including BB for a week and the hubster is out tonight for a curry with friends (I’ve urged him to go). My mum and I have anContinue reading “Day 89 – Babysitting”

Day 88 – two fat ladies

So if you weren’t aware (and sorry if you are and I’m teaching you to suck eggs), the term “two fat ladies” comes from bingo halls in the UK. It might also be in other countries, but I’ve not played bingo since being a kid in a social club with my Irish Nana. The termContinue reading “Day 88 – two fat ladies”

Day 79 – looking forward

I came across this photo I took 2 years ago in Berlin and loved the colours of Autumn so thought I’d share it. I’m hoping this Autumn is as colourful. I’ve got a night swim this evening, my first ever. I’m really excited to go and I’m even more excited that my sister is comingContinue reading “Day 79 – looking forward”

Day 76 – Bashful

I feel slightly bashful of my meltdown yesterday. I think the question just hit a nerve and I spent the evening half watching car share whilst examining my reaction and what it meant. I think I’m hyper sensitive to anything atm as I’m working myself up about my forthcoming heart procedure and also desperately wonderingContinue reading “Day 76 – Bashful”

Day 73 – Gratitude (x2)

Dexter is setting in well. Day 2 and he’s already slept on the bed. BB adores him, but we are keeping an even closer eye on her when he’s around as we are desperate for him to feel safe. He just happens to be the most loving cat I’ve had the pleasure in coming across.Continue reading “Day 73 – Gratitude (x2)”