Day 222 – Early Mornings and birthdays

I’m writing this in the inky blues of the first morning light of the day. I’m sat on my yoga mat, having just done my yoga practice for the day. Yesterday I had the bestest birthday in my whole 37 years. We literally just took BB to the park (my hubby booked the day offContinue reading “Day 222 – Early Mornings and birthdays”

Day 108 – Remend

I feel a lot calmer now I’ve booked someone to talk to. He suggested keeping a food diary and mid scoff of some secret chocolate buttons around 5pm yesterday, I felt a bit embarrassed but then reminded myself that’s the whole point of it isnt it. Not to get embarrassed, but examine the problem andContinue reading “Day 108 – Remend”

Day 85 -Bittersweet

Day 85 – I think one of the interesting and slightly bittersweet areas of sobriety is finding out who your friends are. I blogged previously about telling one of my binge drinking buddies about my sobriety. I wasn’t sure whether she’d still come over for a cuppa when we were due to meet. I wasContinue reading “Day 85 -Bittersweet”

Day 75 – “Are you pregnant?”

Today I had my pre op checks and was gutted when they didn’t even ask me whether I drink or how much. Like seriously gutted. The hospital was empty and I actually felt safer there than I did when popping to the supermarket. My lovely Canadian friend is moving back to Canada mid October, butContinue reading “Day 75 – “Are you pregnant?””

Day 59 – New Friends

Today we (and when I say we I mean me and BB), went to our first baby class since lock down. I’ve been so excited about getting out again and mixing with other mummys and babies. We get there in plenty of time and settle in on our mat next to (well 2 meters away)Continue reading “Day 59 – New Friends”

Day 29 – Advice and thunderstorms

My step daughter has headed back to her mothers for a week and the house feels calm. I could almost feel my shoulders drop from relief when the door shut behind her (well actually she left it wide open but you get the gist). She’d wet the bed overnight and I felt so sorry forContinue reading “Day 29 – Advice and thunderstorms”

Day 23 – Play dates

Today BB and I had a play date with their little pal Alfie and his lovely mum. I’ve really struggled with bonding with other mums, especially due to Covid. I always feel not good enough as a mother, but I think this has a lot to do with my guilt around drinking and lack ofContinue reading “Day 23 – Play dates”