Day 106 – thank you

Thank you all so much for yesterday. After pressing send on writing it, I cried my eyes out and then went for a waddle to get some fresh air. It certainly helped. I was blown away with everyones kindness and understanding. It’s the first time I’ve ever shared anything like this (well apart from myContinue reading “Day 106 – thank you”

Day 88 – two fat ladies

So if you weren’t aware (and sorry if you are and I’m teaching you to suck eggs), the term “two fat ladies” comes from bingo halls in the UK. It might also be in other countries, but I’ve not played bingo since being a kid in a social club with my Irish Nana. The termContinue reading “Day 88 – two fat ladies”

Day 80 – Can you believe it

I can’t believe I’m at day 80 already. It only feels like yesterday I was trying not to puke, with a hangover down a childrens farm. Cursing myself for feeling so poorly and trying to blot out the whole experience from my mind as I went through the mummy motions. I’m so proud that I’veContinue reading “Day 80 – Can you believe it”

Day 73 – Gratitude (x2)

Dexter is setting in well. Day 2 and he’s already slept on the bed. BB adores him, but we are keeping an even closer eye on her when he’s around as we are desperate for him to feel safe. He just happens to be the most loving cat I’ve had the pleasure in coming across.Continue reading “Day 73 – Gratitude (x2)”

Day 58 – Blah

I’ve been really lucky today as my husband gave up his run so I could swim. I’m really enjoying being in the water, getting lost in my thoughts as my body finds its rhythm. It’s definitely me time and I’m going to miss it when I’m at home recovering from the operation next month. InContinue reading “Day 58 – Blah”

Day 56 – happiness

After a rough week, today I am so happy. I feel as if its like a brook of happiness bubbling up inside me. I had a beautiful morning swim, where the coldness of the water felt exhilarating. I drove across the countryside taking in the morning sun on the freshly harvested fields. I came homeContinue reading “Day 56 – happiness”

Day 49 – Zero Sleep

After writing yesterday BBs cold got really grotty to the point where it became apparent the only place they were comfortable sleeping was in my arms. I set up a make shift bed downstairs in our tiny home, to give the hubster a chance of getting some sleep over the intermittent screams. And I sit.Continue reading “Day 49 – Zero Sleep”

Day 48 – Positivity

So I’ve been reading a lot of your blogs and reflecting on the funk I’ve got myself in. Reading about reframing and resilience, looking for the positives when feeling blue. I’ve also brought the book the happiness project to help crawl out of this mole hole I’m in. Yesterday I felt awful in my ownContinue reading “Day 48 – Positivity”

Day 21 -Banana pancakes and Canadian friends

I’ve made it to 21 days. I can’t believe it. I ran at 5:30am after waking with BB. I came across some geese crossing the road and they made me smile. I made banana pancakes for breakfast for the 3 of us. I met up with my wonderful Canadian friend and had brunch. I metContinue reading “Day 21 -Banana pancakes and Canadian friends”

Day 19- swim

I woke up today and cried. Not big screwed up face gluppy tears, but very close to getting there. I was so sad my first holiday with BB and hubby was over. I’d really enjoyed the build up and anticipation towards the holiday, then being in a lovely little cottage in grasmere and showing BBContinue reading “Day 19- swim”