Day 96 –

I’ve never been tempted more than today to drink. The day in some respects has been lovely. BB and I went National Trusting with a friend. We both gazed in wonder at the colours of Autumn on a wood walk. She constantly reached up and tried to touch the leaves. We shared a lunch outsideContinue reading “Day 96 –”

Day 92 – My God Mum

I don’t know if I’ve ever told you. But I’ve seriously lucked out with my god mum. She is everything I’d love to be if I’m ever lucky enough to be given the role. My BB even knows her as Grandma Din (when I was little I couldn’t say Lynne so the name Din stuck).Continue reading “Day 92 – My God Mum”

Day 91 – HBD BB

Today is BB’s first birthday and we have celebrated with a Colin the Caterpillar cake. Like her mum, she adored her first taste of chocolate and here begins a beautiful love affair with the magic brown stuff. I can’t even describe the love I feel for my 1 year old daughter, it seems to beContinue reading “Day 91 – HBD BB”

Day 81 – Day 1 of isolation

I started my isolation for my op today and the most tiring thing is trying to tire out a nearly 1 year old. BB is desperate to walk (but can’t), lies face down and screams when you leave the room and has an attention span of dory the fish. We’re currently on the second napContinue reading “Day 81 – Day 1 of isolation”

Day 80 – Can you believe it

I can’t believe I’m at day 80 already. It only feels like yesterday I was trying not to puke, with a hangover down a childrens farm. Cursing myself for feeling so poorly and trying to blot out the whole experience from my mind as I went through the mummy motions. I’m so proud that I’veContinue reading “Day 80 – Can you believe it”

Day 79 – looking forward

I came across this photo I took 2 years ago in Berlin and loved the colours of Autumn so thought I’d share it. I’m hoping this Autumn is as colourful. I’ve got a night swim this evening, my first ever. I’m really excited to go and I’m even more excited that my sister is comingContinue reading “Day 79 – looking forward”

Day 76 – Bashful

I feel slightly bashful of my meltdown yesterday. I think the question just hit a nerve and I spent the evening half watching car share whilst examining my reaction and what it meant. I think I’m hyper sensitive to anything atm as I’m working myself up about my forthcoming heart procedure and also desperately wonderingContinue reading “Day 76 – Bashful”

Day 73 – Gratitude (x2)

Dexter is setting in well. Day 2 and he’s already slept on the bed. BB adores him, but we are keeping an even closer eye on her when he’s around as we are desperate for him to feel safe. He just happens to be the most loving cat I’ve had the pleasure in coming across.Continue reading “Day 73 – Gratitude (x2)”

Day 62- Girls Day

Today me and BB had a girls day as Daddy went to play golf. We danced to Estelle “American Boy”, ate home made falafel together and sang a million nursery rhymes. We popped into my elderly 90 year old nana back garden so she could see BB before the local lockdown commences on Tuesday. WhilstContinue reading “Day 62- Girls Day”

Day 60 – Alcohol, the abusive partner

Today BB woke up in a grumpy mood. Possibly getting over a little bug they’ve had or teething or probably both. I had 3 hours to entertain them inbetween nap times and after playing with all their toys, lunch and an outfit change after a little accident we still had 2 hours to go. IContinue reading “Day 60 – Alcohol, the abusive partner”