Day 188 – Alcohol Nightmares

I’ve just woken up all clammy with my heart racing. Last night in my dream I drank. I was sitting in a made up city bar by a window with a collection of people. I was dressed up, confident, glass of crisp, cool, white wine in hand. I remember taking a sip and then thinkingContinue reading “Day 188 – Alcohol Nightmares”

Day 101 – If only I’d known…

Im beginning to understand, the way you respond to whats going on in the outside of you, is reflective of what’s going on within. My life was so much more chaotic and stressful 100 days ago. I was filled with guilt and self loathing and that fed through into my response with everything. Giving upContinue reading “Day 101 – If only I’d known…”

Day 60 – Alcohol, the abusive partner

Today BB woke up in a grumpy mood. Possibly getting over a little bug they’ve had or teething or probably both. I had 3 hours to entertain them inbetween nap times and after playing with all their toys, lunch and an outfit change after a little accident we still had 2 hours to go. IContinue reading “Day 60 – Alcohol, the abusive partner”