Day 233 – Same but different

4 days after the cravings striked, they are slowly starting to dissipate and it’s such a relief. And whilst everything looks the same on my normal day to day mum life, it feels sort of different. I now know I’ve got the strength not to crumble and when there’s rough cravey times in my futureContinue reading “Day 233 – Same but different”

Day 230 – Cravings be craving

Woke up on day 230 still craving. It wasn’t an every minute thing, like it used to be at the start. But it was there, whispering away to me. I confessed to my long suffering husband. Who was brilliant. He got me outside for a big walk with BB. We all went to the ducksContinue reading “Day 230 – Cravings be craving”

Day 223 – A little bit

So I’ve decided to do a little bit of something each day to gain a sense of achievement in these groundhog day times. It could be house and garden related or myself, as long as I ticked a small task off each day. After deciding this, I suddenly felt full of energy and good intentions.Continue reading “Day 223 – A little bit”

Day 222 – Early Mornings and birthdays

I’m writing this in the inky blues of the first morning light of the day. I’m sat on my yoga mat, having just done my yoga practice for the day. Yesterday I had the bestest birthday in my whole 37 years. We literally just took BB to the park (my hubby booked the day offContinue reading “Day 222 – Early Mornings and birthdays”

Day 217 – Sunny Sober Saturday Mornings at 7 months

Saturday is my lie in day and I look forward to it all week. This Saturday was no different. Bb slept in and we all awoke together at 7am (most recently we’ve been lucky to sleep in until 530am). The hubster got her up, brought me a mint tea in bed and I sat contemplatingContinue reading “Day 217 – Sunny Sober Saturday Mornings at 7 months”

Day 210 – Lazy Sunday afternoons

I’ve just woken up from an awesome 2 hour afternoon nap and thought I havent updated this blog for ages. So on this lazy Sunday afternoon here we go. I’m still sober (yay) and still working on 2021’s word replenish. I’ve done yoga every day now since 1st feb and have noticed the change inContinue reading “Day 210 – Lazy Sunday afternoons”

Day 200 – The list

Today mark’s 200 days in my sobriety journey. To be honest I can’t believe its come round so fast. The first 100 days stretched so long, especially the first 30 to 40 days. Then the last 200 have flown by. Ive decided to do a list. A 40 things before I’m 40 list, to makeContinue reading “Day 200 – The list”

Day 195 – Snow Fun

Last night after my Friday night bath, I came down to see the front garden covered in snow. It was gorgeous. We excitedly got my SD out of bed (an echo to my childhood of when it snowed). We bundled her into warm clothes with her pjs underneath and head outside. We sledged, snowball foughtContinue reading “Day 195 – Snow Fun”

Day 188 – Alcohol Nightmares

I’ve just woken up all clammy with my heart racing. Last night in my dream I drank. I was sitting in a made up city bar by a window with a collection of people. I was dressed up, confident, glass of crisp, cool, white wine in hand. I remember taking a sip and then thinkingContinue reading “Day 188 – Alcohol Nightmares”

Day 180 – Beauty

In these cold, snowy, sober days I’m still managing to find beauty in everything. I’m trying (and sometimes failing) to let go of stress around home schooling my SD, trying to study myself and parent my beautiful baby. I’ve found being sober, not sobering. I’m still laughing more, getting up early to do my yogaContinue reading “Day 180 – Beauty”