Day 195 – Snow Fun

Last night after my Friday night bath, I came down to see the front garden covered in snow. It was gorgeous. We excitedly got my SD out of bed (an echo to my childhood of when it snowed). We bundled her into warm clothes with her pjs underneath and head outside. We sledged, snowball foughtContinue reading “Day 195 – Snow Fun”

Day 193 – And breathe

I haven’t posted for a few days as I’ve been so stressed over this situation with the ex wife. And whilst round 1 might be over for now, I know there’s another fight looming in our future. We found out yesterday, after all those threats, the manipulation that we were letting my SD down, theContinue reading “Day 193 – And breathe”

Day 188 – Alcohol Nightmares

I’ve just woken up all clammy with my heart racing. Last night in my dream I drank. I was sitting in a made up city bar by a window with a collection of people. I was dressed up, confident, glass of crisp, cool, white wine in hand. I remember taking a sip and then thinkingContinue reading “Day 188 – Alcohol Nightmares”

Day 184 – 6 months sober

For 6 months I’ve lived authentically (or at the very least that’s what its felt like). I chose not to drink alcohol any more after a terrible trip to a childrens farm with a hangover (think the stench of cows combined with the hangover heaves). However, I still continued to drink for the next 2Continue reading “Day 184 – 6 months sober”

Day 180 – Beauty

In these cold, snowy, sober days I’m still managing to find beauty in everything. I’m trying (and sometimes failing) to let go of stress around home schooling my SD, trying to study myself and parent my beautiful baby. I’ve found being sober, not sobering. I’m still laughing more, getting up early to do my yogaContinue reading “Day 180 – Beauty”

Day 177 – The comfort zone

Nearly 6 months ago. I gave up drink. This was throughout my life, my comfort blanket, my warm and fuzzy against the harsh realities of life. This was especially true in lockdown when my drinking escalated to every night, getting earlier and earlier in the evening/late afternoon. Abstaining from alcohol turns out to be oneContinue reading “Day 177 – The comfort zone”

Day 175 – “Me time”

Firstly, thank you, thank you, thank you to everyone who reached out after my last post. I really appreciated it, it was so lovely. Keeping up with the theme replenish, I woke up this morning early and couldn’t get back to sleep (5:30am). It made me smile as in my old days of working thatContinue reading “Day 175 – “Me time””

Day 173 – Happy New Year

I saw this on instagram this morning and thought it was perfect for anyone trying to really do something. I know I’ve been guilty of this. Starting something and then finding an excuse. Whether it be because I’m scared, nervous, my lack of self belief or a hundred other reasons. The things I’ve really wantedContinue reading “Day 173 – Happy New Year”

Day 154 – Dreary Sundays

“Oh the weather outside is frightful, but inside it’s quite delightful”. That pretty much sums up today. Earlier I ran 3 miles in sleet and loved it. I’m definitely a winter runner, love the feeling of the rain pelting my face. Talking of running, my running friend went to our cheese and wine deli toContinue reading “Day 154 – Dreary Sundays”

Day 151 –

My SD came early this morning and the house feels so much more alive having her here. Thankfully her test came back negative, she’s just got a nasty viral infection and cough. She loves the Xmas tree and loves that BB is now saying mama, dadda and cat. She’s desperately trying to teach her toContinue reading “Day 151 –”