Day 188 – Alcohol Nightmares

I’ve just woken up all clammy with my heart racing. Last night in my dream I drank. I was sitting in a made up city bar by a window with a collection of people. I was dressed up, confident, glass of crisp, cool, white wine in hand. I remember taking a sip and then thinkingContinue reading “Day 188 – Alcohol Nightmares”

Day 184 – 6 months sober

For 6 months I’ve lived authentically (or at the very least that’s what its felt like). I chose not to drink alcohol any more after a terrible trip to a childrens farm with a hangover (think the stench of cows combined with the hangover heaves). However, I still continued to drink for the next 2Continue reading “Day 184 – 6 months sober”

Day 180 – Beauty

In these cold, snowy, sober days I’m still managing to find beauty in everything. I’m trying (and sometimes failing) to let go of stress around home schooling my SD, trying to study myself and parent my beautiful baby. I’ve found being sober, not sobering. I’m still laughing more, getting up early to do my yogaContinue reading “Day 180 – Beauty”

Day 177 – Monday

Last night one of our friends turned 40 and we celebrated with an online murder mystery night. I was dreading it to be honest. It started after my bed time (9pm) and I was worried everyone would be pissed on camera trying to talk over everyone. It actually turned out to be one of theContinue reading “Day 177 – Monday”

Day 175 – “Me time”

Firstly, thank you, thank you, thank you to everyone who reached out after my last post. I really appreciated it, it was so lovely. Keeping up with the theme replenish, I woke up this morning early and couldn’t get back to sleep (5:30am). It made me smile as in my old days of working thatContinue reading “Day 175 – “Me time””

Day 174 – Insta and Yoga

Day 2 of replenish and it’s going well. I’ve done yoga last night and in BBs nap time today. I’m following a skincare routine and hiding from my husband the new products that are turning up with alarming frequency from the postman. I’m drinking water. I’m eating mindfully my 2 snacks and 3 meals. I’mContinue reading “Day 174 – Insta and Yoga”

Day 169 – Snow

Today there has been a whisper of snow and I’ve enjoyed every part of it. We went for a stomp, my SD and I over the fields with one of her friends. She wants to know why she’s not allowed her friends in the house and we’ve explained because mummy is breaking the rules. It’sContinue reading “Day 169 – Snow”

Day 161 – Labels

I’m starting to think more about labels, mainly the labels we put on ourselves. They can be positive like “clever, happy go lucky, hardworking” or negative “underachiever, overweight, bad friend”. Some of the positives can also become negatives to a person. For example “everyone thinks I’m the weird kid since I’m clever”. I was sittingContinue reading “Day 161 – Labels”

Day 154 – Dreary Sundays

“Oh the weather outside is frightful, but inside it’s quite delightful”. That pretty much sums up today. Earlier I ran 3 miles in sleet and loved it. I’m definitely a winter runner, love the feeling of the rain pelting my face. Talking of running, my running friend went to our cheese and wine deli toContinue reading “Day 154 – Dreary Sundays”

Day 149 – Step families and Covid

As I predicted over a cuppa this weekend to my bemused (at the time) husband, it is all kicking off over my step daughter and covid. My step daughters bubble has got to isolate, there have been 5 cases in the last few days. She was spending the weekend with her mother when the newsContinue reading “Day 149 – Step families and Covid”