Day 268 – Resolutions

I felt so awful on Easter Sunday after 10 or so days of binge eating. My body felt lethargic, puffy, my joints felt achy, my face was bloated from consuming dairy. Whilst we had a lovely day as a family, easter egg hunting, cooking a roast, the kids picnicking and playing outside, I was soContinue reading “Day 268 – Resolutions”

Day 265 – 100 days to go

I realised today I have a 100 days until I reach a full year of sobriety. It’s weird as it doesn’t feel like a long time at all. But then the first 100 days felt like such a long hard slog. Today we have met my family in the park (to get it over withContinue reading “Day 265 – 100 days to go”

Day 264 – Last night

So after writing everything thing down yesterday I went and did some yoga. During a lying down bit at the end, I fully decided I would raise everything with my husband. I think part of my issue was I felt like I wasn’t living authentically as I was holding a lot in. I also feltContinue reading “Day 264 – Last night”

Day 263 – Still Standing

I’m still standing (just). After vowing to never eat another bite of chocolate on saturday night, I’ve had some every day. Some days I’ve binged. Some days I’ve had just a little. I’ve decided to park it for now and enjoy Easter. I’ll let future me deal with this. It’s been warm and sunny hereContinue reading “Day 263 – Still Standing”

Day 258 – Excess

I seem to do everything in life to excess. Drinking, eating, exercising, skin care, I’m either all in or completely out. It’s around 3am in the morning here in England and I’ve just been horrifically sick. It’s completely my fault. I decided for 4 weeks I wouldn’t eat dairy or sugar as I’ve previously feltContinue reading “Day 258 – Excess”

Day 257 – That uncomfortable feeling

I watched an episode of the amazing “This is us” earlier in the week and unexpectedly it brought up a whole host of uncomfortable feelings. They’ve stuck around with me all week, lurking in the shadows. So I thought I’d purge/share on here. The episode was in series 5, examining the link of baseball betweenContinue reading “Day 257 – That uncomfortable feeling”

Day 252 – Saturday evening runs

This photo was taken at the end of my run last night. One of the best things about sobriety is the extra time you get. This month I’ve rediscovered my love for running. I used to always run and have done half marathons, 10kms etc. When I got pregnant, it was discovered I had anContinue reading “Day 252 – Saturday evening runs”

Day 242 – 5am wake ups

Today my little munchable BB woke us all up at 5am. The whole house. So my hubster and I tagged teamed getting the children up and had our showers. By this point it was 6am. Between 6am and 8am before my step daughter left for school, I’d made a pasta bake for BBs lunch andContinue reading “Day 242 – 5am wake ups”

Day 239 – Happy International Women’s day

Day 239 and I wanted to take a little moment to appreciate my beautiful baby (BB) on international womens day. She is my reason for getting sober and working on self improvement so she can grow up being proud of her strong mother. My friend who was furious I’d given up drinking is pregnant andContinue reading “Day 239 – Happy International Women’s day”

Day 233 – Same but different

4 days after the cravings striked, they are slowly starting to dissipate and it’s such a relief. And whilst everything looks the same on my normal day to day mum life, it feels sort of different. I now know I’ve got the strength not to crumble and when there’s rough cravey times in my futureContinue reading “Day 233 – Same but different”