Day 46 – Cravings

I’m getting more and more nervous about this heart procedure. I notice the more nervous I get, the more I have to fight the overwhelming urge to stick something in my mouth. I’m craving alcohol, sugar (namely chocolate) and dairy (chocolate, cheese and pizza). I keep telling myself if I still want it tomorrow, IContinue reading “Day 46 – Cravings”

Day 45 – my achy, breaky, heart

When my alarm went off at 5:15am I wanted to hit it so hard. The wind was still howling outside as I threw on my swimsuit and snuggly clothes and headed out to the car. The drive took 10 minutes so I awkwardly hung out in the car park until others arrived and congregated aroundContinue reading “Day 45 – my achy, breaky, heart”

Day 44 – Big Snotty Tears

Big Snotty Tears, yep. I don’t know why but I’m having a really down day. I’m not sure if it’s the weather pounding the house with rain and the wind wailing like a lost child. Or the fact my SDs room is a tip and I know at some point I’ve got to wander intoContinue reading “Day 44 – Big Snotty Tears”

Day 43 – tidy house, tidy mind

Day 43 and I’ve noticed lots more energy today which is really positive. But it might just be we were so tired from a holiday with kids we’ve been in bed each night at 8:30. I’ve once again taken the plunge and signed up to a local swim squad with training at 6am on TuesdayContinue reading “Day 43 – tidy house, tidy mind”

Day 42 – Sober Sisters

Day 42 – 6 weeks sober, bring out the trumpets. I lake swam again this morning and really enjoyed the scenery, the light reflecting off the water and the chill of the water on my body. One of the coaches asked whether I was going to put my head under or use goggles. I quiteContinue reading “Day 42 – Sober Sisters”

Day 41 – the benefits so far…

Apologies in advance for a bit of a ramble, it started as a personal list but thought it might be good to share, incase anyone else was interested or sober curious. These are the benefits I’ve noticed in just 40 days or so, so far The benefits 1) The addicted voice in my head hasContinue reading “Day 41 – the benefits so far…”

Day 40 – finding my path

It’s our last day in Devon and I’ve finally finished the sober diaries. I don’t know which one I’m most sad about tbh. We did the normal kids activities (rock pool examining, crab fishing, glitter painting). Then my lovely friend and I decided to head on down to Croyde beach as we’d heard it wasContinue reading “Day 40 – finding my path”

Day 39 – The Climb

Normally when we’re down in Devon, Thursday night is a girls night. The husbands put the kids to bed and we normally go for a stroll to the harbour and have a few gins. This time round I suggested a small hike down the coastal path to a beach that has been described as aContinue reading “Day 39 – The Climb”

Day 38 – Magic

Today my friend and I took my step daughter and my friends daughter to a socially distanced circus (with no animals). I loved watching their faces light up especially at the “magic” parts. Following on from this we walked to the beach front, had an ice cream trying to drag the day out longer. ChattingContinue reading “Day 38 – Magic”