Day 86 – Tomorrow

I’m in a really bad head space about tomorrow and I just can’t seem to shake the foreboding feeling that’s going with it. For those of you that don’t know, when pregnant with BB, it was picked up I had a heart condition which was previously undetected. I’m lucky, it’s not massively serious (SVT) butContinue reading “Day 86 – Tomorrow”

Day 85 -Bittersweet

Day 85 – I think one of the interesting and slightly bittersweet areas of sobriety is finding out who your friends are. I blogged previously about telling one of my binge drinking buddies about my sobriety. I wasn’t sure whether she’d still come over for a cuppa when we were due to meet. I wasContinue reading “Day 85 -Bittersweet”

Day 83 – Moderation

Day 83 I’ve been thinking a lot today about moderation. It all started when a new dress arrived and discussing the next girls meal. Everyone was moaning about the grey day (I actually love grey days) and someone chipped in, was it too early to start on the wine. The response from the rest ofContinue reading “Day 83 – Moderation”

Day 82 – Day 2 of Isolation

Day 2 of isolation. I’ve eaten all the chocolate in the house. We have walked in the rain, I have crawled on my hands and knees pretending to be a dog and chasing BB. I have cleaned out our bathroom cupboard and found loads of hotel bath bottles so I can have a spa night.Continue reading “Day 82 – Day 2 of Isolation”

Day 80 – Can you believe it

I can’t believe I’m at day 80 already. It only feels like yesterday I was trying not to puke, with a hangover down a childrens farm. Cursing myself for feeling so poorly and trying to blot out the whole experience from my mind as I went through the mummy motions. I’m so proud that I’veContinue reading “Day 80 – Can you believe it”

Day 79 – looking forward

I came across this photo I took 2 years ago in Berlin and loved the colours of Autumn so thought I’d share it. I’m hoping this Autumn is as colourful. I’ve got a night swim this evening, my first ever. I’m really excited to go and I’m even more excited that my sister is comingContinue reading “Day 79 – looking forward”

Day 78 – Mondayest Monday

My husband is the most loveliest husbands, I’m really lucky. After breaking down for the 15 time yesterday, he wrapped me in a blanket and put on Harry met Sally. I slept better and woke up later than normal. Had cuddles with BB and then we met one of her little friends for an outdoorsContinue reading “Day 78 – Mondayest Monday”

Day 76 – Bashful

I feel slightly bashful of my meltdown yesterday. I think the question just hit a nerve and I spent the evening half watching car share whilst examining my reaction and what it meant. I think I’m hyper sensitive to anything atm as I’m working myself up about my forthcoming heart procedure and also desperately wonderingContinue reading “Day 76 – Bashful”

Day 75 – “Are you pregnant?”

Today I had my pre op checks and was gutted when they didn’t even ask me whether I drink or how much. Like seriously gutted. The hospital was empty and I actually felt safer there than I did when popping to the supermarket. My lovely Canadian friend is moving back to Canada mid October, butContinue reading “Day 75 – “Are you pregnant?””

Day 74 – Any old tat and a comforter

Today when walking BB on our circular route that takes us through a park and past a couple of charity shops a bread bin in a window of one caught my eye. Now, I’ve been hankering after a bread bin for quite a few months as my husband is a complete bread/toast fiend. At anyContinue reading “Day 74 – Any old tat and a comforter”