Day 195 – Snow Fun

Last night after my Friday night bath, I came down to see the front garden covered in snow. It was gorgeous. We excitedly got my SD out of bed (an echo to my childhood of when it snowed). We bundled her into warm clothes with her pjs underneath and head outside. We sledged, snowball foughtContinue reading “Day 195 – Snow Fun”

Day 193 – And breathe

I haven’t posted for a few days as I’ve been so stressed over this situation with the ex wife. And whilst round 1 might be over for now, I know there’s another fight looming in our future. We found out yesterday, after all those threats, the manipulation that we were letting my SD down, theContinue reading “Day 193 – And breathe”

Day 184 – 6 months sober

For 6 months I’ve lived authentically (or at the very least that’s what its felt like). I chose not to drink alcohol any more after a terrible trip to a childrens farm with a hangover (think the stench of cows combined with the hangover heaves). However, I still continued to drink for the next 2Continue reading “Day 184 – 6 months sober”

Day 177 – The comfort zone

Nearly 6 months ago. I gave up drink. This was throughout my life, my comfort blanket, my warm and fuzzy against the harsh realities of life. This was especially true in lockdown when my drinking escalated to every night, getting earlier and earlier in the evening/late afternoon. Abstaining from alcohol turns out to be oneContinue reading “Day 177 – The comfort zone”

Day 173 – Happy New Year

I saw this on instagram this morning and thought it was perfect for anyone trying to really do something. I know I’ve been guilty of this. Starting something and then finding an excuse. Whether it be because I’m scared, nervous, my lack of self belief or a hundred other reasons. The things I’ve really wantedContinue reading “Day 173 – Happy New Year”

Day 172 – Replenish

I’ve been thinking a lot about new years, the turn of not only a new year but a new decade. Thinking about resolutions that have come before. Ones that were successful and ones not so much. I’ve read peoples blogs, listened to what friends and family are doing, looked inwards. There’s 2 that keep comingContinue reading “Day 172 – Replenish”

Day 169 – Snow

Today there has been a whisper of snow and I’ve enjoyed every part of it. We went for a stomp, my SD and I over the fields with one of her friends. She wants to know why she’s not allowed her friends in the house and we’ve explained because mummy is breaking the rules. It’sContinue reading “Day 169 – Snow”

Day 167 – Boxing day

Yesterday for Christmas, we stayed at home the 3 of us. I loved it. You see normally Christmas involves 16 of us squeezed round a table at my Aunts, whilst the family politics plays out over bottles of wine and food. My mother being toxic, would make at least 3 maybe 4 digs about myContinue reading “Day 167 – Boxing day”

Day 163 – Lucky

Today, I feel really lucky. We heard some bad news about a family friend and my heart went out to them yesterday. It literally knocked us for six and we spent a quiet evening my hubby and I. After a sleepless night, BB fell over this morning and cut her lip. There was blood everywhere,Continue reading “Day 163 – Lucky”

Day 161 – Labels

I’m starting to think more about labels, mainly the labels we put on ourselves. They can be positive like “clever, happy go lucky, hardworking” or negative “underachiever, overweight, bad friend”. Some of the positives can also become negatives to a person. For example “everyone thinks I’m the weird kid since I’m clever”. I was sittingContinue reading “Day 161 – Labels”