Day 36 – Be more Jack Pearson

Is there ever a character in a book, film or tv series that gets under your skin? Maybe you watch in horror, hands over eyes as you’d never want to be like that person (for me Eddie in Ab Fab). Or on the flip side a character you really admire. My character is Jack Pearson,Continue reading “Day 36 – Be more Jack Pearson”

Day 34 – Self Care Saturday

Firstly thank you for all the comments regarding this week. I feel very humbled and lucky to have made such lovely connections in such a short time. I am really touched. Tomorrow I’ll be 5 weeks sober. I still can’t believe it, if I’m honest it feels like yesterday and years ago at the sameContinue reading “Day 34 – Self Care Saturday”

Day 33 – love, life, loss

Yesterday ended up being the biggest test so far in sobriety and in all honesty I would’ve broke if it wasnt for my husband. I got the all clear from the boob clinic which was fantastic and I feel very lucky. I came home and was playing with BB just after her afternoon nap. WeContinue reading “Day 33 – love, life, loss”

Day 25 – Rings and things

“Do you want a gin and tonic”, “no thanks”. “Come on have a glass of fizz”, “no thanks I’m going 100 days sober”. After explaining it a million times to my family, what is it they don’t get? My mum moved into her new home today and my sisters, my step daughter and I wentContinue reading “Day 25 – Rings and things”

Day 24 – The Hole

We stumbled over a hole today. Me and BB. When I mean stumble, I mean smash our knees (mine), whack our head (BB’s- they were in the baby carrier) and rip our toe nail off (mine).And we both cried. And cried. And cried. We cried when we got back to my mums, as we wereContinue reading “Day 24 – The Hole”

Day 23 – Play dates

Today BB and I had a play date with their little pal Alfie and his lovely mum. I’ve really struggled with bonding with other mums, especially due to Covid. I always feel not good enough as a mother, but I think this has a lot to do with my guilt around drinking and lack ofContinue reading “Day 23 – Play dates”

Day 22 – Bye bye cake

I consider myself a stay at home mum, however, inbetween BBs nap times I offer HR consultancy to a business down south. Today in a meeting there is a big discussion over reducing head count, the impact on cost vs delivery of service. It’s my first meeting with the Ops Director (OD) and the MD.Continue reading “Day 22 – Bye bye cake”

Day 19- swim

I woke up today and cried. Not big screwed up face gluppy tears, but very close to getting there. I was so sad my first holiday with BB and hubby was over. I’d really enjoyed the build up and anticipation towards the holiday, then being in a lovely little cottage in grasmere and showing BBContinue reading “Day 19- swim”

Day 18 – Nourish

So I’ve finally graduated from Jason Vale and now reading Catherine Greys book called the unexpected joy of being sober. I’m only a little way in but so far enjoying the different writing style. One comment from the book has stopped me in my tracks this afternoon “The thing that you think is your crutchContinue reading “Day 18 – Nourish”

Day 17 – the Ripple Effect

I’ve been thinking about this blog a lot, maybe in fact too much. Today in Beautiful Babies (BB) nap time, long suffering hubster decided he would quite like a nap too. So off I skipped leaving the two of them napping. I decided to hike up to Alcock Tarn as I’ve always wanted to seeContinue reading “Day 17 – the Ripple Effect”