Day 159 -Breaking the cycle

Normally when I start binging on food, that’s it. I’m in a destructive cycle for weeks, with it escalating each day. I end up bloated, with a sugar hangover and feeling utterly rubbish with myself. I managed to stop binging after 2 days, which is a record for me. I tried to put into practiceContinue reading “Day 159 -Breaking the cycle”

Day 124 – 4 months

So I reached 4 months yesterday and didn’t even realise until my sister text me to congratulate me (she reached 4 months today). I feel so proud that I’ve got here and thankful to the blog and you guys for all your support. When she text I’d literally just seen this image on someone’s storiesContinue reading “Day 124 – 4 months”

Day 121 – Hospital Dash

Yesterday after posting I had a scare. I think every mum, dad, care giver dreads the day their children get ill. Most the time it’s a sniffle, a virus or a tummy bug. But a few parents are truly unlucky and their child gets really sick. Fast. It must be gut wrenching. Yesterday, after beingContinue reading “Day 121 – Hospital Dash”

Day 117 – When?

A few comments have got me thinking recently on my blog and others. A common theme throughout the sober community is “I wish I’d given up when I was younger/ X age/ when I had kids etc”. So I was just wondering, could you pin point an actual moment of when you wished you’d givenContinue reading “Day 117 – When?”

Day 110 – Full circle

Today we went to a childrens farm. It’s actually become a special place to me. You see 112 days ago, I stumbled round this childrens farm, with my BB (Beautiful Baby), my SD and a raging hangover. It wasn’t a warm day, but I had the sweats, cotton wool mouth, a pounding head and IContinue reading “Day 110 – Full circle”

Day 106 – thank you

Thank you all so much for yesterday. After pressing send on writing it, I cried my eyes out and then went for a waddle to get some fresh air. It certainly helped. I was blown away with everyones kindness and understanding. It’s the first time I’ve ever shared anything like this (well apart from myContinue reading “Day 106 – thank you”

Day 104 – Isolation

Still in isolation awaiting the results. Curled up with a cuppa whilst BB naps. Hubster was on to me straight away when I suggested I go and lie down “to rest”. Git. He’s also pointed out we’ve ran out of toblerone and cant go out (that noise is my waist line rejoicing). In an absoluteContinue reading “Day 104 – Isolation”

Day 101 – If only I’d known…

Im beginning to understand, the way you respond to whats going on in the outside of you, is reflective of what’s going on within. My life was so much more chaotic and stressful 100 days ago. I was filled with guilt and self loathing and that fed through into my response with everything. Giving upContinue reading “Day 101 – If only I’d known…”

Day 100 – 100 days of Sobriety

It’s been clear for the last few years that alcohol had to go. I was either drinking (in the evenings when BB was in bed) or thinking about drinking, like literally obsessively (whilst BB was awake). I remember a tree falling down really close to my friend and I during a run. This was literallyContinue reading “Day 100 – 100 days of Sobriety”

Day 99 – I’ve got 99 problems but alcohol isn’t one

Well any more that is. I literally can not believe tomorrow is day 100. I’ve been blogging for 93. It feels so surreal. At the start of the process I remember having a discussion with the lovely and wise Ainsobriety about getting rid of the alcohol in the house. I remember her suggesting it andContinue reading “Day 99 – I’ve got 99 problems but alcohol isn’t one”