Day 175 – “Me time”

Firstly, thank you, thank you, thank you to everyone who reached out after my last post. I really appreciated it, it was so lovely. Keeping up with the theme replenish, I woke up this morning early and couldn’t get back to sleep (5:30am). It made me smile as in my old days of working thatContinue reading “Day 175 – “Me time””

Day 148 – Grey Foggy Day

Today we took a chilly stomp round a park with fog for company. I loved it. We (BB and I) were meant to have our first swimming lesson, but it was cancelled so we had a long bath full of toys. We played. She napped, I did some maths (brushing up for September). Now she’sContinue reading “Day 148 – Grey Foggy Day”

Day 145 -A new path

So I had to confirm with the university yesterday that I’d like to accept their place. I’ve decided after many years of longing, to go into teaching. Primary school teaching to be exact. It was something I really wanted to do when I was younger. I even got offered a place on a course andContinue reading “Day 145 -A new path”

Day 113 – “From my home to yours”…

So I may have borrowed another Adriene quote, but she always says something so profound at the end of each session it’s hard not to. Todays session was intend and it asked us to look inside and ask what do we intend. My monkey brain went crazy for a second, but settled on to seeContinue reading “Day 113 – “From my home to yours”…”

Day 111 – Halloween

It’s definitely starting to feel like Halloween in this house. The decorations are up, the tempers are fraught, the kids are being terrors (and not even in costume yet) and we’re nervously waiting out to see whether we enter another national lockdown. I notice I definitely eat my feelings (thankfully I’m not a fan ofContinue reading “Day 111 – Halloween”

Day 108 – Remend

I feel a lot calmer now I’ve booked someone to talk to. He suggested keeping a food diary and mid scoff of some secret chocolate buttons around 5pm yesterday, I felt a bit embarrassed but then reminded myself that’s the whole point of it isnt it. Not to get embarrassed, but examine the problem andContinue reading “Day 108 – Remend”

Day 106 – thank you

Thank you all so much for yesterday. After pressing send on writing it, I cried my eyes out and then went for a waddle to get some fresh air. It certainly helped. I was blown away with everyones kindness and understanding. It’s the first time I’ve ever shared anything like this (well apart from myContinue reading “Day 106 – thank you”

Day 103 -Bloody Covid

Sorry I havent written for 2ish days. I’m just awaiting the results of a covid test and have been so stressed about it. I’ve only got a sore throat, (which is really sore), but my friend I’ve walked with earlier in the week has tested positive. Her only symptom was a sore throat, her husbandContinue reading “Day 103 -Bloody Covid”

Day 101 – If only I’d known…

Im beginning to understand, the way you respond to whats going on in the outside of you, is reflective of what’s going on within. My life was so much more chaotic and stressful 100 days ago. I was filled with guilt and self loathing and that fed through into my response with everything. Giving upContinue reading “Day 101 – If only I’d known…”

Day 99 – I’ve got 99 problems but alcohol isn’t one

Well any more that is. I literally can not believe tomorrow is day 100. I’ve been blogging for 93. It feels so surreal. At the start of the process I remember having a discussion with the lovely and wise Ainsobriety about getting rid of the alcohol in the house. I remember her suggesting it andContinue reading “Day 99 – I’ve got 99 problems but alcohol isn’t one”