Day 19- swim

I woke up today and cried. Not big screwed up face gluppy tears, but very close to getting there. I was so sad my first holiday with BB and hubby was over. I’d really enjoyed the build up and anticipation towards the holiday, then being in a lovely little cottage in grasmere and showing BBContinue reading “Day 19- swim”

Day 18 – Nourish

So I’ve finally graduated from Jason Vale and now reading Catherine Greys book called the unexpected joy of being sober. I’m only a little way in but so far enjoying the different writing style. One comment from the book has stopped me in my tracks this afternoon “The thing that you think is your crutchContinue reading “Day 18 – Nourish”

Day 17 – the Ripple Effect

I’ve been thinking about this blog a lot, maybe in fact too much. Today in Beautiful Babies (BB) nap time, long suffering hubster decided he would quite like a nap too. So off I skipped leaving the two of them napping. I decided to hike up to Alcock Tarn as I’ve always wanted to seeContinue reading “Day 17 – the Ripple Effect”

Day 16 – Gratitude

Today I’m so grateful for water. The vast lakes of the lake district that cleanse your soul. The babbling brooks that make my beautiful baby laugh with delight. The rain splashing my face that makes me feel alive. The water that hydrates my body and is the liquid fuel for every step. Today we didContinue reading “Day 16 – Gratitude”

Day 15 – the M6 is a cruel mistress

Firstly thank you for everyone who has taken the time to reach out. Whether it be reading the blog, liking posts or/and offering words of help/support. I am so grateful to find a little community trying their best to improve themselves. One day at a time. Secondly, I survived the step daughters horse riding. HerContinue reading “Day 15 – the M6 is a cruel mistress”

Day 14 – Boob clap and brunch

The lavender really knocked me out yesterday and we had a rather wild Saturday night going to bed at 8:30pm. Lucky for me that we did, as Beautiful Baby (bb) woke me up at 3:30am demanding attention. Normally I’d have woken up fairly groggy to deal with them or kicked hubster out of bed toContinue reading “Day 14 – Boob clap and brunch”

Day 13 Deep Breaths

It’s the first friday where I havent hurried the bed time routine so I can have that first and (second glass of vino). Together, my step daughter and I bring all of her teddies down stairs and make a den to watch frozen 2. It’s just the two of us this evening as hubster isContinue reading “Day 13 Deep Breaths”

Day 12 – the beer in the fridge

I know some people refer to the cravings and the voice inside their head as the “wine witch”. To me it feels like a dark swarmy cloud, pushing against my skin, with words of temptation whispering on a breeze inside my ear. Yesterday the cloud seemed to have bursts of sunshine in. I think IContinue reading “Day 12 – the beer in the fridge”

Day 11 – am I addicted to Jason Vale?

I’m finding the Jason Vale book on quitting alcohol fascinating. It’s such an insightful book into alcohol addiction. I’m only half way through but I’m enjoying devouring the pages. I think the reason I’m enjoying it so much is because not only is it psychologically based but he also explains what’s happening with the bodyContinue reading “Day 11 – am I addicted to Jason Vale?”

Day 10 – the rage

Today the rage has set in. I’m so flipping angry. Heaven knows what about. Obviously take it out on the long suffering hubster. I mutter at him for leaving things on the stairs. Curse whilst I make sweet potato frittas for beautiful baby. Hang washing out and practically throw it on the line. Mood improvesContinue reading “Day 10 – the rage”