Day 88 – two fat ladies

So if you weren’t aware (and sorry if you are and I’m teaching you to suck eggs), the term “two fat ladies” comes from bingo halls in the UK. It might also be in other countries, but I’ve not played bingo since being a kid in a social club with my Irish Nana. The termContinue reading “Day 88 – two fat ladies”

Day 86 – Tomorrow

I’m in a really bad head space about tomorrow and I just can’t seem to shake the foreboding feeling that’s going with it. For those of you that don’t know, when pregnant with BB, it was picked up I had a heart condition which was previously undetected. I’m lucky, it’s not massively serious (SVT) butContinue reading “Day 86 – Tomorrow”

Day 85 -Bittersweet

Day 85 – I think one of the interesting and slightly bittersweet areas of sobriety is finding out who your friends are. I blogged previously about telling one of my binge drinking buddies about my sobriety. I wasn’t sure whether she’d still come over for a cuppa when we were due to meet. I wasContinue reading “Day 85 -Bittersweet”

Day 84 – well hellloooo hair

Day 84 I’ve always had thin and let’s face it rather lank hair but lots of it. Over the years this has made it hard to grow and prone to splitting. I always thought the poor growth was due to gene’s and the fact I bleached it with highlights every 6 to 8 weeks whichContinue reading “Day 84 – well hellloooo hair”

Day 81 – Day 1 of isolation

I started my isolation for my op today and the most tiring thing is trying to tire out a nearly 1 year old. BB is desperate to walk (but can’t), lies face down and screams when you leave the room and has an attention span of dory the fish. We’re currently on the second napContinue reading “Day 81 – Day 1 of isolation”

Day 80 – Can you believe it

I can’t believe I’m at day 80 already. It only feels like yesterday I was trying not to puke, with a hangover down a childrens farm. Cursing myself for feeling so poorly and trying to blot out the whole experience from my mind as I went through the mummy motions. I’m so proud that I’veContinue reading “Day 80 – Can you believe it”

Day 79 – looking forward

I came across this photo I took 2 years ago in Berlin and loved the colours of Autumn so thought I’d share it. I’m hoping this Autumn is as colourful. I’ve got a night swim this evening, my first ever. I’m really excited to go and I’m even more excited that my sister is comingContinue reading “Day 79 – looking forward”

Day 76 – Bashful

I feel slightly bashful of my meltdown yesterday. I think the question just hit a nerve and I spent the evening half watching car share whilst examining my reaction and what it meant. I think I’m hyper sensitive to anything atm as I’m working myself up about my forthcoming heart procedure and also desperately wonderingContinue reading “Day 76 – Bashful”

Day 75 – “Are you pregnant?”

Today I had my pre op checks and was gutted when they didn’t even ask me whether I drink or how much. Like seriously gutted. The hospital was empty and I actually felt safer there than I did when popping to the supermarket. My lovely Canadian friend is moving back to Canada mid October, butContinue reading “Day 75 – “Are you pregnant?””